The Orignality

2007-04-19T05:37:00.000-07:00

A few days passed .
I did nothing, but just producing a track .
Just one track .
It's like i'm coming back .
I'm still busy busy, doing tha thing which is coming up .
& maybe post it into my blog .
And when the shit is out, u gotta buy it does'nt cost alot .
If u can buy shirts why can't u my my bomb ?
And maybe if u think its not worth it ,
i tell u this, ur shit maybe worst than this .
I've been busy doing things with different kind of bitch .
One's hot, anotha one's hot, anotha one is hot .
I got full of my hand, bwoy, show me whatchu got .
If u dont understand .
Just simply go and rewind .
Stop and read about it, stop again and think about it .
Silent killers are everywhere in time .
When u smelled it once, u'll be like, that bomb, it's a crime !

haha !

guys, im just bored . Lil info' . There's a new lady in Dyna-MiC named Senorita D . She's hot . Singing for my chorus in the song Get Dirty which will be releasing soon . Producer of course the
hands of MacCardy ! Get Dirty, the beat is something like Lil Jon's beatz but its tha hands of Jab . Beats are also selling from prices of $40 and above . Senorita D is a new Eurasian Blooded with Malay blood human being . haha ! She's nice, hot, sexy, u can't take your eyes of her, but i can ! hahah ! Me and Jab started to know her by, Tha Digits . Me and Jab taught she was like the other malay-ed typed minahs but she's r&b ! She sings well .

Okay. Well, u people do wanna know what am i up to right till i did not update, didnt online . haha ! Well guys, im having some trouble about my life . Fighting with friends, busy on songs, doing rhymes . And on weekdays, im out from after school to 6.30 . and then went home, i changed and went out again . As usual, Bukit batok . Kinda damned about my friends there because they took glue and force me to take the laughing Gas and i was being like an idiot smiling at people all the time ! Aight . Guys, taubat, if not, i aint ur freaking "friennd" .

Haizz . Plus i got paid from people by F-L-I-R-T -ing . haha ! It's the money, not the job . damn. now i stopped . Clubs to attend for keeping an eye for my man . All day long . Fights with people who i don't know . haha ! damn, its fun . Plus me and my homeboy, can't stop doing that OH ! Like when we see chicks, he will say, "baby, can u like my OH !" haha ! he got slapped a few times . xD

okay . Thats that . I need someone to love, someone to be there, someone to be true to me, someone to be mine, someone who i belongs to . If the right one is granted, all my bad deeds will be all gone . Please vote me . Cheyy mcm singapore idol ! xD
Nono. Seriuzly, please, whoever has admired me, do like me or love me, tell me . I need a girl to ride ride ride . I need a girl to rock my life .

thats that ! Relinks will update soon .

Moon Partner ! Cheers yaww~ The full moon takda this week ! ):
haha ! thankz yaww for those help yaaa ! xD

peace manusia's !

~Shaze~
with love .

2007-04-14T06:52:00.000-07:00

People !

im currently busy doing something .

haha ! and im doin whut those hustla's doin that u see in tha TV .

and tha clubs too .

kinda livin in tha G's life now .

so im gotta get my name up to fuck all this shits .

yeahh yaww~

haha!

ayte mayn . today im out for somethang .

ill update some other time yaww people!

remember to tag me lovers .

i love u too . thank you .

2007-03-17T05:52:00.000-07:00

To a Bratha .

Well, this is it huh ? After all this long, u tought, u're only mad ? Well asshole, im fuckingly mad at you . You're saying i don't care when u get beaten up by chumps ? Well Mister, i did okay . what's da name Family for ? Now it's between me and you now huh ? Who's gon be dha Soul Survivor ? You fucking with me, ya goin to hell asshole . I know u years, and now, we gon be apart just a snap ? Friendship is gon apart ? I thought u said, we gon be homies forever . When Joe died, u promised everything will be okay. So, NOW IS IT FUCKING OK ? Fight with me like a man bitch . & yeah, sorry i punched ur fucking face at tha hospital, coz i can't stand you're rubbish-ness that i did'nt come to help ya out . You did'nt called, and you're blaming me for every single shit ? What tha fuck ? I was once in ur situation, i didnt blame anyone except myself. im not asking u to blame yourself, im asking u to blame whosever is in da fucking wrong situation .

You know what ? Sof told me to apologise to u . Well, i guess i wont . i wanna take it to tha floor . Straight on . && what about im dating your bitches ? ur dating my girls . i dont give a fuck no more mayn . coz we used to be bro's . Now we aint bro, we aint homies, we aint friends, we aint nothing . Every thing u were in shit, i put my life on the line . The fights ? ur beef's with punks ? dammit . Who came to clean ur back ? ME . I said ME . A Z U A N D Y . I don't ask you for anything . I just want u and i to settle this one on one . No rules . Its life and death . I dont give a fuck about waiting ! I dont give a fuck wether u're still paralyzed, u arms and legs still injured or ur about to die . I dont give a shit . I will get what i want . and i will do what i wanna do .

No one ain't getting my way . i know ur whole family . well i guess, our family . Familia Vergo . If i tell u once backstabbed someone, u're really gon be in trouble or make it simple, you lied about something larger . haha ! now enemy, which do u want ? Battle on tha floor, or u get it ? There still an option for u . U apologise to me, face to face . && if u do that, ill give u something in a return . Ur face gon be bleeding . U SEE!!? WHAT I TYPED ? every single shit i typed, u get it inside your fucking stupid brain . and stop doing bad fucking deeds bwoy . fucker~

~Shaze~
BRING IT ON BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T GIVE A FUCK .

2007-03-17T05:28:00.000-07:00

Sheesha-night-out at east coast was damn fun sia ! hahaha! Alif smoked, and walao, he get high so easily . Haha! && Marsha can't stop hugging me . Aww~ . Ain't im cute ? Thats that . haha! well, went to tha beach with Sofiah . We talked about the incident between me and Hilmi . Yeahh Girl, thankz aite for those words and thankz for the Hug . I love yaww man! (: && i smoked not much last night ! Wow! usually i finish the whole box of ciggs . Well, yesterday was just Sheesha . haha! wheee~ && i can't forget the True Or Dare Game . I had to be naked sia . AGAIN! Well, last night i was being BULLIED, AGAIN . && there was nasty stuffs that Alif and herr girl did . hehe . I DID NOT PEEP GUYS!!! I WAS USING THE BATHROOM AND I SAW THEY DOING THA THANG . && oh, they did'nt have sex ok .

So, about the game, i have to be naked . Drink lotssa Sprite , Eat alot of nuggets and must find hot chicks to slap me . && i did kena slapped . Dammit u guys! Sofiah, you'll get it one day ! && not forgetting, There's a new member in our family, Rif . Welcome to the family bwoy! && any shit ur into, beep us . Familia Vergo mang ! (:

haha! && that singing contest we had !! I won okay! i know ! hahaha! I AM NOT MR.T!!!! haha! and the last event we had, discussing who we wanna be . I told them, i wanna be Justin Timberlake . They said, " Kau jadi anak terbalek sua!" . hmph! damn u guys! xD

Well, yesterday i did'nt drink . Occording to Sofiah . Thankz for stopping me from drinking baby . These Guys are just LOVE! (: This is what i call a FAMILY . hahaha! .

Yesterday, Jab went back from his supernumaree course . woahh . His voice did change. hahah! before prayers, me and jab went to 941 . anotha FAMILIA of myne . ek ? ok . lepak. denn went to FRIDAY PRAYERS . && ouh my GOSH!!! i have'nt started studying!!! dammit me!~ haha!

PRETTY RICKY's new album - Late Night Speacial . Is now out in stores . Do get a copy . like i do .

I bet u, u will never regret buying these album .

And so, today, Lepak-ed with Jab . till 4+ . went out again . to somewhere yaw human don't need to know . and its fun hanging around . hahah! Anyone up for a movie ? Stomp The Yard ? Maybe next week watching it . So, if wanna follow, bring along your money, and also, yourself . if u dont want to, bring ur money to me, and ill watch for you . Thank You .

Schedule for tomorrow ? Dammit! A DATE! haizz . well, outta go . dada guys . && Farhanie love's Pretty Ricky huh ? hahaha! ok2 .

PRETTY RICKY is LOVED by their FANS .

holla yaww~

~Shaze~

with love . ((:

PS: Where'd you go ? =D

2007-03-14T23:50:00.000-07:00

Dammit~ Bullshit . A phone call around 11 saying, "Yaw shaze, yaw boy, C is now in tha hosp ." Damn . Hilmi ? A accident happened to him at bugis . WTF ? now he has a fractured leg and hand . dammit bwoy! I told u don't get tha stock when im not there . You should call me first bwoy! Now u're blaming me ? What tha fuck mayn ? And now we're beefin' ? Who'z fucking fault is it ?

Last night, you said u called ? Me and Sof was eatin at Mac's and i was waiting for yaww call . Yaww didnt call . Now where yaw gon pay da FC ? Watch ya back bwoy . Dammit . Now im tha shit ? dammit bwoy!

So now beefin ay ? I fucking not tha one ur suppose to be beefin bwoy! Shitt sia . Bcoz of u i didnt went to bugis today . Sorry yaww Marsha, i cant stand to punch Hilmi just now .

So today didnt do much . Whatever . Kak Fizza didnt come today . wlaan dress .

Cann i put a lil peer pressure on u baby!?

~Shaze~
with love .

PS: Everything seems cool when u're there .

2007-03-14T02:25:00.000-07:00

Let's talk about you and me .
Well, conversations on tha fone, conversations about us, haha .
Damn funny . OkOk .
So yesterday night, hang out wit cha' was pretty fun . (:
thankz yaww for making my night bright . haha !
JJ Langteh ? aper tehh ntah ek . xD
yadiyadada .

Guys, do i look like a gangster ? seriuzly ? im not lorhh . i hate gangsters lagi ader . Guys, im beggin', don't judge me by tha cover ayte . hees . (:

Well, past few days were shit . dammit . ya'll who knows, yeah . Dammit~ Sheesha aint bad at all ek ? haha . Stress, depressed on those few days . Marsha ! Remembered tha time that u told me that my life will be as perfect as other people ? Well, i guess, u're wrong . Life will never be perfect girl . (:

Well, thinking about everything happens, why does it me ? Damn . Ay! any rock band concert coming to Singapore anymore ? I wann go !! Who can go with me ? My treat ? Im thinking, to stop chasing girls or in other words, do what i'd do . Datings with girls who're attached, im like such an assshole . Feel me ?
Now im just sitting here, with a injured leg, waiting for dha right one to come . I've always thought whenever i have a girl being with, will be tha perfect one . So far tha longest relationship is a year and a half . that was out of 36 ex girlfriends . Well, now im just thinking about studies and going as far as i can get through education . and when doing that, who knows tha right time, tha right one will come . To my boys, yaww~ one girl to love mayn . Keep it straight . (:

Well, sometimes i do feel like been hated my people because they don't know tha real me . They will think im a bad person or whuttever, bt yaww who know me best, yaww know . (:
I appreciate all tha people who knows me, who's been with me all this long . Yeahh . well, i don't hate people that much . People are hating me much much . hahas . knahsaying ?

So, if yaww dont wann be with me, fuck it, i aint dealing any bullshit'in . Im fucked up, im not mad, i aint mad, im just fucking piss off with some mothafucking people who dont wake up from fantasy's . So any bitches, anyone, hate me, go on! thankz assholes . And yaww~ told at 3 . What da fuck ? wann make up stories i heard ? bitches .

holla~

~Shaze~
with love .

2007-03-11T01:33:00.000-08:00

Maybe some other day ok ? I'm sorry . I just don't wanna be cheated anymore && yes, i don't have feelings for u anymore . Well, thats that . Have any problems ? Hate me . ok ?
We still could be friends aight ? It's just that, ya know . I hate it . I'm not looking for looks bt tha looks inside tha heart . Friends is enough . At least there's me . I told u once, i've told u how many times before . Okay, maybe there's someone else but who are u controling me ? Girl, im still here for u wen u need someone to lean on . That's only i can help . Anythang, any problems, dial my number up , ill try to comfrot u ayte friend . ((:

Today, at 1am in tha morning . "THON" with ayesha, is'sha, firawani, Haikel . Fun! Haiyakk~ Baek Haikel! Pasal kau draw tangan Is'sha, aku kene terok . Muker aku kene conteng . Syabas! Sedih ek ? aper2 arh . err ? so blabla . went home, sleep . Woke up ard 11.30 . Called up Jab . Denn met Eka, ayesha && haikel at Small Mac with Jab too laa . Went to Ngee Ann Plaza, watch da DANCEWERKS . GO RP! GO RP! hahaha! cheered for em! wheewhoO~ ya'll did a great job!

After that, went backk to Tampines . Met with someone . hees. ((:
after that, went lepak with Jab . Eat eat! listened to musics . JAB! AKU TK STEAM BABI!
denn went home . Dad was mad at me, i don't know why and it makes me mad . FUck arh sahh ..

tomorrow, i dont know who to follow ? Go to IZZ Or Go out shopping with someone ? hmms .

~Shaze~
with love . ((:

PS: Have i found tha right path ?

2007-03-10T06:04:00.000-08:00

Here are some few sample of my Report Book . eyh! i mean my Rhyme Book . Ya'll check it out and tell me which verse is da best aye! wanna feat it on my next song . xD
1.

Im feeling so sick .
Being so weak .
Every single night i heard all shits .
saying this, saying that
i do suck yaww~ datz da fact .
im just young, im just stupid, dont know whats goin on with life .
next time, i rather kill myself with a knife .
So is this how its goin down ?
Me and you aint talking now ?
What about everything we been through ?
you just gon throw all this out ?
what about da good things we talk about .
how about, we just sort this out ?
Last night, u didnt answered my calls .
I was sitting here alone .
waiting for u, but u're always on tha busy tone .
wondering where ya out, who u with, or with cha girls shopping ?
Im staring out this glass, and saying, whatever .
sometimes i even wonder, where ya goin, can we be together ?
its too magor, did received you name on my pager .
errtime, err second, all i think was u .
I tried to forget ya, but i can't .
How am i supposed to get outta of this way ?
Because u've been stucked in my mind all day .
first, we were having so much fun .
denn yeahh, after dat, all da drama begun .
u broke down in a while .
im statisfied dat i've made u smile .
Maybe i just aint right for u .
Maybe u was too right for me .
I cant forget about u .
There's must be something dat u're holding on to me .
I've been only for lover and friend .
And im amazed, u walked out , u make me turn down .
No smiles, just tears and my face frowned, up side down .
and when i turned around, i just imagine dat u were beside me .
u left me, without anything which maybe, end of my life .
Anything will do for u, ill just sacrifice .
to show how tha love inside me is . to show how much i do care .
I dont want this, bt all gotta do, i to bare with it .
we took a break and listenin what ya sayin' .
u'd be dead when we head up to bangin .
holla at me, keep on Bangin, keep on Breaking .

2.

Girl, i dont understand .
How we both ended up this way .
I give u all i can but u walk off da rest of your way .
I've been drowned from u .
When u cry, i felt all your pain .
And when im in pain, u didnt even say, baby are u okay ?
My love for u is like, my blood and veins .
dont u understand ?
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3.

Every nightmare, wen i see u, its a scene .
Every sec, i just keep on da dream .
Loosing u will be just like a scream .
I miss ur touch, i miss ur smile,
i miss ur kiss, i miss tha days .
that u and i, watched da moon and sky .
baby, will u be mine ?
Only thing that keeps me up from down ,
its dat u who, make da vodoo becomes de ja vu .
i became loosed, and dont know what to do .
Im speechless, breathless, smelled da smell of u make me self stupidness .
and its fine dat u and i, da perfect time, together .
Loving each other, for one anotha .
I love to love, i dont wanna loose herr .
im gon gett herr .
she and me, never be apart, be together .
cute face nyce smile all mine .
me and u, damn, we gon shine .

4.

&& i dont even know where to start at .
i just cant be without u, thats that .
and baby, thats da way i feel .
keep me with u, ill keep it all real .
u found out, u turned to be my baby .
i teach my otha brotha's how to treat a lady .
and i dont wann be apart lately .
i wanna be together forever till death on me .
and u were tha one who shine me through .
and u were tha one who make me do what it do .
all my life, all my dream, it all became true .
that i finally, found u .
and yes i do, really do, love u .
and i pray u feel da same way too .
know stay with me . hold me .
be with me, kiss me .
do what u want to do to me .
if i get naughty, u can beat me .
I love u till i die, sweet lady .
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Yaww!! hw ya doin ?! hyeap! nth much to write today . tomorrow goin to DANCEWERKS . and supporting for Redhical Phlow! wheewhoO~ u go guys! ((((:

holla~ at me if wanna follow ayte .
and girls! keep on doing da thang right! i mean, u know . haha .
Ladies, wanna get to know me ? add me uP! xD

Playa's out mayn .~

ay! ya guys! where's da new spotlight at ? i forgot sia! haha!!!

~Shaze~
with love . ((:

PS: MISS YOU .

2007-03-09T04:57:00.000-08:00

When you see the elders fighting, and everything .
They look mad, bt in within, they do love you .
They sometimes Loosen their cool, that's why .
And sometimes they don't want u to ask why because it makes them hurt or more stressed .
So if you people are in this problem, just chill . (:

I've been kicked out, i've been hated, i've been whacked, i've been through hell . People bitching about me, everything . Every single mothafucking shit that i've been through, u never been before . Well, im one in a million, im the only asshole here who sucks alot . Who ya'll people hate . What ever . People, u can start hating me . I thought this is the year of fun . But it found out bad in Term 1 . 3 more terms ? its gon be much worst . I blamed for everyone's fighting . All the caring, love, talks and every single shit i did, it comes back to this . I know who i am, a mothafucking, small, asshole, stupid kid .

School, was fun until i received my results . 3 U-grades . Visual Arts, Geography, DNT . This 3 subjects . I was so dissapointed and i was thinking to give up in everything . Why can't i be like the bright students ? Why must i be stupid ? Why am i am asshole ? Why ? Why do i have a life which sucks like hell , which is like, IM IN HELL . Maybe i should die ? so people will be very very happy without me . Admit it, i makes ya'll feel embarrsed, makes ya'll feel bad . I do suck right ? HATE ME! I SAID DO HATE ME! NOW! HATE ME!

I've lost everything . A bestfriend, love, money, studies . I think i'll give up . or maybe i just wait till it comes to my death . Admit it people! i do suck !!! I know u know . Well, bullshit, i do !! Don't trynna say, aku kesian sia tgk kau . You dont know how i feel, you dont know what's going on in my life . Deep in my hearts are my family, friends, and others . There's no love for me . I hate myself for dissapointing people . I should die .

I may seem happy, walking around like nothing bothering me . But there is . Bullshit !
tomorrow going to Tan Tock Seng's hospital for da check up .
Just wish me i'll die ayte .

&& maybe i should die .

~Shaze~
with love . (:

PS: Thankz for anyone who supports me all this long .

2007-03-07T04:50:00.000-08:00

Have u ever thought of giving up in everything coz the one's u love makes u breaking down ? Have u ever thought that is ur parents really loves you ?
Have u ever thought that ur friend u trust will be the one always be by ur side ?
Have u ever stop and think ?
Have u ever been hyper and suddenly makes someone bad and u just continued to do it just to make people laugh ?
Have u ever try to be the best but never suceed because people are hating you ?
Have u ever thought that u were the right son/daughter ?
Have u ever thought u are really part of the family ?
Have u ever been hated against anyone and u really wann give up ur life ?
Have u ever felt lonely with problems and u wann deal with it urself bt can't ?

Those listed, try to stop and think . and there must be some other questions inside ur head .

&& yeahh! about today!!

School was fun! Maths was da BLAST! had a revision and 2 mistakes only laa sia! xD And Science! Mr. Lai's good news turns out for me a bad news . His last teaching 2A is on this Friday! sedih laa . He's da best science teacher dat anyone would get! arghh!!
Recess was cekek-ing . English ! Miss i dont noe whutt relief us . Denn was CME . went to Comp Lab and then went to DNT workshop for DNT . -.-'
CME! Miss Nurul, my neighbour, didnt came . Miss Faz relief us . haha! i sang-ed like an idiot . Miss Faz said, i can't sing! baskett! i was just playing aye!
Miss Faz love da song It Ends Tonight! haha! ^5! xD

After school, went to Lepak with Wirda, Faiz, Syarmilla .
Faiz went with Amelia and others while left Me,Wirda and syarmilla.
Went to Sunplaza . Lepak . went home by walking .
Saw alot of friends! saw Zaki, Ishyam, Rahman . haha! gerek!
denn went home . changed . lepak with Alfian . denn went to da soccer court . Lepak with 1t2's, Eka, Izz, Amira, GADAFI! && ohh! i was bullying Izwan! haha! i shouted at him, "mahu cabot peh sia? mak bapak kau da susah2 nk carik duit utk school fees abeh nk cabot ? lebih baek kau berhenti denn jadi sampu sampah kan sia ?" everyone was like, "Relak arh Azuandy ." I bullied GADAFI and HAIQAL. I keep bangging Haiqal's head bcoz he called me names . and gadafi was for fun . haha! he's a cowardly cat . -.-'

And then went to fetch sis . and now blogging && chatting!

My adik, Nur Afiqah Adriana, is officially been shared by Azmeera . haha! Half of herr and half of mine . haha! && yesterday's moon was an awesome && beautiful one . wow! (((:
now there's no moon . ((:

holla people ! wakalaka bang bang! shakalaka baby! xD

~Shaze~
with love . ((:

PS: Am i for real ?

2007-03-06T05:51:00.000-08:00

Sometimes u feel weak && u wanna just give up . But you wanna find that special thing inside ur body, ur insticnt . And there's people who will never wanted you to shine, this is the moment, to shine, to show the power inside you . Don't and never give up till you're collapse .

Aint this not fair ? People are trying to try their very best and you're nt even giving them support instead, u look down to them . && bro, im refering to ur situation . You were trying your best for education, people didnt help you and they even dared to say, "u're never goin to be the top in da class coz you're dumb and really dumb stupid, ur stupidness makes us hate you ". imagine if u were that friend of myne, u would goin be like, okay, i give up, i'll quit school .

&& u dont even cared about his future? his life ? he's now broke down, having a hard time to cope with his education too because he was banned for few weeks and his parents had a divorce few days ago . Is'nt dat sad if u're in his situation ? His rich with money bt not rich in friends helping . I'm damn dissapointed with human beings and even worst, my own culture . Are u malays so cruel and so selfish!? Shitt sia~ nehmind brotha, im here to help you whenever u're in need . Friends are friends forever . Love bro . (:

Well, today was sucking . Ferst was Maths and i love it! wheewhoo~ Miss Felicia, u look awesome today . ((:
DnT was really makes me suck suck suck . Slept for awhile . haha! i just bought my textbook . and my Design Journal had just finished! wheewhoo~
&& PE was okay .
English had a test . it was damn easy .
and then i went off to lepak with Faiz, Haziqah && Wirda . Saw Elsa and others .

&& then went home . fetched lil sista ~. Lepak with JAB . and i just got backk home . Fun sia watching TAI CHEE BAI . hahahha! kekek sia JAB! =P

and tomorrow i must hand in DnT workbook, Port Folio, Design Journal . Fcuk~ hahah! im doin it laa! buhhbye!

Leave a tagg my lovers!
mwah~

Azmeera! ADRIANA'S my ADIK!! bluek~ hahah! she's myne! xD

~Shaze~
with love . ((:

2007-03-04T04:57:00.000-08:00

Im Back here . Fucking depressed . Fucked Up . Why just u people just shut da hell up ? Just keep it to urself and stop disrespecting people . Dosen't dat reflects bad abt urself ? HUH!?
DUHH~

So whuttever ayte . Yesterday went to Azraei's birtday party! it was fun! Happy badae bwoy! ((:

Sim Lim again with ma mayn, J A B . Bought da beat thingy . haha! So fast come with dough huh . Bought it and went backk to tampines ard 8. I went to Ibnu Abbas to help out coz there was a ceramah lorhh . Ramai manusia bertabuh . haha .

So after da helping, went home ard 11.40.

No one was at home uh . I saw someone outside my house siting on my bench . and it was skind cold . She was smiling . Wearing a white dress . Fucking scared lorhh . bitch fuck! i was so scared . shaking my hands while i was opening up da door . She asked, "adik, boleh tumpang rumah satu hari ? Cik tidak ada rumah nak tinggal ." i was like, " err, tak tahu." and i opened da gate . Rushingly went inside . and wen i look at da doorhole da ferst time, she was there . Da second time, she was vanished . walao! im alone and damn! scared laa sia! fuck fuck fuck!

Thankz to Azmeera laa and some other friends who kept me calm . walao! i opened songs loudly like hell~ and i was acting like normal . haha! walao! OLANG TULA SELAM LORH!

and ard 3 i went out . Chilling with Hilmi . And dere was 5 asshole's staring at us and they talk shit abt me . "Eyh budak! umur baru braper nk taunt peh? mak bapak kau bodoh? tak tahu jager anak peh?" tell me who would'nt get fucked? i bet da hell outta ya! fuck sia .

&& Today . woke up ard 12 . bathe . chatt . and ard 3 i went out with Jab. Tested da Beatmaker thingy . and went to TM's YAMAHA MUSIC SCHOOL . da MIDI USB CABLE cost us $137!!! sial jerr! so denn went to LJS to eat and went to da Studio . Record da song, "Slow Jam . and it's ayte . its nt finished yett . maybe tomorrow recording again .

Just finished watch MIB II . Kak Fizah and herr friend went to my house . yeap2 . haha! okays . im done . dada~

~Shaze~

with love . ((:
PS: If only ya'll know my pain and anger .

2007-03-02T07:26:00.000-08:00

Good evening ladies and gentleman(s)!

Im here updating . (: && today was fuiiyoo!
I woke up ard 7 . haha! sorry Wirda and Gadafi coz im late! hehe! im a busyman u know! ((: okay! went to da stadium with da bus 23 . sampai, went to meet da folks . haha! denn lined up . denn blablabla . My turn for running . lower secondary 100 m . I was in lane 1st . which is far denn da rest . I was imagining dat im catching an asshole who's making me mad . I took every event seriuzly . Gegarisan! Sedia! MULA! i was running . haven't yet sprint . i told myself, c'mon fucker! u can run! run like da wind! run as fast! u can do it laa babi! u can! u got balls? run ! run!
from da last, i catched up to third . Blablabla . won da trphy third . i suck . -.-'

And yeah, anotha event, 4 x 100 m . i was da start . anotha 3 peeps in my group was azraei, gadafi and syahin . I ran, tgh pancit coz too much redbull . 2A was supposed to be third MUTHAFUCKER! teachers, no offence ek, buta pehh sia? Mr Hafiz was on our side. ugh! i can won anotha bronze laa sia ! i was dissapointed coz i didnt run fast . i suck . -.-'

Amerul asked me to run anotha event for Sepak Takraw . 4 x 100m again . so i start again . i was damn pancit . my leg was goin loose . so i run . dammit . i tried my fucking best . da B Division boys are damn fast laa sia . mangkuk! && we won 4th .

There was supposed to be my anotha even . 4 x 400 m . bt they didnt annouced . good lorh . and where's da medal! im either 2nd sia! babs~ freak ! okay. so after dat . went to splashed water at azraei . blablabla . -.-'

went to safra with gada, wirda, syaiful and faiz . i lost 2 rounds with syaiful and lost anotha 2 rounds with faiz. at least i won gadafi . he's a looser . haha! maen2 jekr bro . ((:
denn ard 3.40, i went home .

Changed . lepak with Jab . at 6.30, fetched sis . and after that . went to Sim Lim to find da Keyboard's for making beats . $240 sia! Our budget was $140 . babi~ went to Mustafa and da cheapest was $179 . denn blabla . went backk to tamp ard 10 . reached ard 10.20 .

went to eat at Macdonald's tampines mall . okay . diz 5 girls was staring at me wen im eating . babs~ hawt laa , boleh laa . but nahh~ (: too bad girls i didnt give my number . sorry . (: next time laa kays . denn went home . ryte now laa . and im done updating .

A BIG THANK YOU FOR THA PEOPLE WHO CHEERED FOR ME WHEN IM IN THOSE EVENTS! THANKZ GUYS! I LOVE YA'LL! MWAH~ (((:

~Shaze~
with love . ((:

PS: i don't think u know that im in love with you . Should she know it ? im scared . (:

2007-03-01T04:59:00.001-08:00

Aloha people! Good evening Ladies And Gentlemen .

Today was da ferst da of March . 1st March 2007 . The day which was on Thursday and thursday is always Geography in my schedule . Well, today's lesson was wheewhoo~ which is also known as, GREAT . -.-' Now im a PRO on reading Maps .

And then was Art . Art was great . I did my drawing perfectly like i draw my ASS . okay . it's kinda nice . bt not that nice to me . Plus, this damn weather was perfectly cold . dammit . and i wore my Sweater . Well, exchanged my sweater with eka's band tee . It's perfectly make me look good. && i was perfectly took a perfectly nyce photo .

Aint diz is my perfectly Picture Perfect ? Perfections . -.-' err? haha!

After Art was my Recess . Recess , i did ate much . i did cekik much . Mee Laksa with 2 Sui mai's . Im eating much coz nk naikkn weight . okay . Selepas itu was, oops . After that was PCCG, which was my last period for today . denn at 12.30, went down to the canteen .

Get ready for da adventure at Suntec City ! Well done ASS, u didnt find any hawt chicks or ask they's number . ASS SUCKS . -.-' . Amelia was feeling down in da bus wen we are heading there . cheer up aytes! ((: denn blabla . went to da exhibition hall . denn Mdm Sim told me and Hadi dat there's a speech at da Ballroom 1 . so went down there . blabla . heard da talk . blablabla ? okay .

haha! i haf to carry Amelia's books/papers . Berat laa OI! haha! denn went fo diz Scheme . An artistic thingy . the girls behind da Tampenisians was irritaiting . -.-' . U guys cannot get dat Artist laa, im here, why didnt u asked my number? haha! PERASAAN ~

Denn blabla . ard 3.40 we assembled . Da Girls went to da toilet . Hadi and me wanted to go to da toilet, acted laa . bt i was wanting to see this nt perfectly girl . && woah! she stared at me . Hadi told me dat too . haha! i know u cant resist to see me . aww~ too bad now u didnt get my number . alala~

denn after da excursion, went backk to school . Denn i followed Hadi to meet his GF with some of his GF's friends . && after dat, i went to Junyuan Primary . terserempak dengan Ayob, Ridhwan and his GF . haha! wan motek jekr! Ayob and me played taitee fo awhile . and Jannatul came . haha! Me and ayob laugh like gler lorhh . he dont know hw to play laa seyh . nt perfectly . haha! wheewhoo~ fun laa sia, everything, today, work out perfectly .

&& fetch sis . I was on the phone with Huda . berbual bnyk laa u! ishk~ im nt ur Slave okay!? -.-' denn went home . terserempak dengan atikah . haha! denn blabla . went home perfectly . mom went backk home also perfectly . and now im done updating .

How many 'perfectly' did i typed? haha!

~Shaze~

with love . ((:

PS: I think im in love once again . But who will it be ?

2007-02-28T04:43:00.000-08:00

Hey hey hey hey!

Today was awesome! school was great! haha! i forgot whutt happened . blablabla .

So friday, 3 events baybeh! and im so scared i might loose laa seyh . WTF~ okay. GUYS, i need ur support, i really need laa seyh . support laa ek! 100m, 4x100, 4x400 . im scared of da 100m and 4x100m . dammit sia . i dont wanna loose coz of running . wen im running, i kept thinking im gon catch dat asshole, haha! datz my secret formula . xD

Well, after school , Me, Wirda, Gadafi, Azraei,Hariz and Syahin, we went to Al-Safra, SAFRA laa . haha! we played pool . First set was Azraei and Hariz, Azraei won! denn Gadafi and Me, well, i won . haha! da last 8 ball, which i hit && scores, is a brilliant hit laa sial! haha! walao weyy!

Denn Hariz was up against Gadafi . and Hariz won! walao . haha!

&& denn, da last event, da main event, ASSuandy V.S. Azraei, Azraei hitt da 8 ball before he scores all his stripes, damn . aww. denn it was Me, da winner, and i decided to be fair, and 2 balls left, da number 9 is "da 8 ball", and I scored da 2nd last ball, stripe and i aimed for da "8 ball", && DAMMIT! ASSUANDY SCORED! ASSUANDY SCORED! wheeee~~ hahaha!

&& tomorrow playing Billard again, friday && saturday too . wheewhoo~ anyone free? tell me ayte . ((:

denn went back to school with Wirda, and played football with Maliki. && Johan treated me a REDBULL! wheeewhoo~ denn blabla . went to Inter with Faiz, Nabilah, Amelia and otha peeps. blablabla, talked2, taught of goin to my house . dada~ went home lorhh. walk home with Faris kecik . denn i went home .

met up with jab. fetch sis. denn blabla . lepak. and now im home . bored to death .

anyone free to play billard with me? dada~

*Today's BILLARD winner.* ((((:

~Shaze~
with love . ((:

2007-02-27T04:28:00.000-08:00

First, i gotta say ,

JAB! MACCARDY, pls pls pls, dont move house . Jgn pindah ok ? pls?! im beggin sia . Dawg, im reminising da best days sia . && every single day wit cha', i can't forget laughters and everything . JAB! sedih sia aku . Jiwa member sia nyer psl . ughs~ haizz . Remember da ferst day we met ? haha! Tender best! wheee~ PS 2! at ur house! walao weyy!

Dawg, if u pindah at punggol, dont loose contact okay . okay ? pls ? :'( . Jgn taw! aku sinie nnti tkder best homie lagi sia . ur da best of da best laa seyh . pls? arghhhh!! GRAM SIAL!

Every Halftime ciggarettes i haf, i remember JAB . xD

And redbulls! we always drink diz . haizz . :(

And every single night, nk taunt, Jab And Shaze . Dyna-MiC trio till death homie !

Im still here, praying fo ya nt moving . ishk~

Well, last night was shitt . Hilmi was there . Filzah, Liyaa and Sofiah was there to accompany me . We saw blue and red lights at da Pasir Ris Park . i know dat was police, Hilmi said, lampu lap-lip . Amekk kau! police came! denn we all run like mad cows . Especially me . Hilmi, Filza and sofiah was caught . Me and Liyaa walked away . haha! hidup sendiri sia kter! duhh~ so went to da MRT station, we chilled . Met Hilmi and da rest, Hilmi bawak Whiskis lagi . -.-' all of us drink . me? i didnt . i think .

and today . i came to school damn late . haha! naseb tk kene chop . okay. i was sick . mabok sia . denn blabla . school laa ek . awesome . Recess da best . eat! denn shit! haha!

After school, went to LJS, to eat with wirda . denn went to sunplaza . lepak . well, i kinda smoke . im trynna stop laa ek . denn went to Pasir ris . walao! i got caught by police . denn went home . fetch sis . denn went back home . dad asked me nt to do it again . im sorry mama. if u want me to leave, i leave, i just wann see u happy with family . pls ?

PS: i love my family, friends and every single one of u . ((((((:

&& Azmeera! i've updated! hahha! whee~

~Shaze~

with love . ((:

2007-02-26T04:31:00.000-08:00

Heyy there! sorry didnt update ytd . Sorry taw! xD

Yesterday was okay laa yerr .

&& Saturday, went to courts! and had lotts of fun! and went home abt 11.30 liddat . whee~ -.-'
ohh so, shitt, can't stand da fucking noise each and every single mothafucking assholing, day! ishk~ haiyakk~ and im having much other problems now . U noe whutt ? Just had news, Hilmi at da hospital, patah tangan bcoz of a fucking fight, after he recovers, im gon patah his fucking hand again. Pissed with him laa sia. DUHH!~

people , im smoking now. but not like last time . a week onli 2 sticks . walao~ ok . im stopping . i wann quit. bt quittin' nyce and slow .

Sunday! whee~ chatted with Azmeera! had alot of fun . denn went out ard 7 . lepak . haha! kekek! denn diz auntie Dorris, send us food from da church . sram sia nk mkn . Jab ate . bt harapkn halal laa . naseb bacerr doa laa denggs! haha!

ok! fun! denn went home . Watched da Movie "Ray" on star movies . and i slept at 12 . haha!

Today! was moody in da morning! i got hyper wen im in class . my class makes my mood went up laa. i cant keep my mouth shut . =X haha! as u can see laa ek . :(
so denn, malay was best . science was fun . Literature was boring . Recess was food time! English! Miss Seah and Miss Faz, relief 2A! haha! fun fun! whee!~ Also on maths lesson . wheewhoo~ (((: EVERY GUY IN DA CLASS CAN'T STOP DA NONSENSE THINGS ABT DA TEACHERS, im not . i think POSITIVE . Mdm Lim told bukit anak kambing . XD

well, after school, went to Simei! Julie's house! fun! watch, kababoom! SPONGEBOOB! haha! wheewhoo~ best2!~ wheewhoo~ denn went back to tamp ard 4++ . went to KFC . and denn wirda had to leave . Left with 4 of us, me, izz, gada, syaiful . haizz . denn went backk home nake 8 with izz && gada! whee~

denn i met up with JAB, bough ciggs. -.-' denn lepak fo awhile . and denn went bckk home . ughs. nag nag nag . all i eat was, Nasi ayam penyek . -.-' haha . im done!

Azmeera! sorry fo da late update! tag tag tag taw! xD

~Shaze~
with love . ((((:

2007-02-23T02:50:00.000-08:00

Heyy u guys ! im currently now damn fuckin' sick . Im feeling damn cold, dizzy and just now, My Nose Bleeds . fuii~

School was great! Practical didnt do much! haha! wheewhoo~ Recess was good, i ate . i was full with energy diz morning . haiyakk~

Afta school met up with The Weirdo's . whee~ haha~ denn went to LJS . blabla . Denn went to Open Plaza . i was feeling so damn with my problems, so i decided to take a ciggarette . And dat ciggarette makes my head more worst . Ok laa. nt so dizzy . Wheewhoo~ denn Met up wit couple of friends at Open Plaza . Thankz ek bro for da ciggs! (:

Da phone suddenly rang, Private Number was calling me . Dat person told me sth dat really made me sad . My answer is NO ok ? Please? :'( all da way moody .
Denn went back to school . Went to Block K ek? tink so . went to da kitchen's way to explore at da toilet, known to be HAUNTED . so went there . I saw sth . i did. seriuzly . and my heart was pumping fast . okay. i acted like im okay laa . dont wann worry my peeps .

Denn suddenly i laugh . I didnt wanted to laugh, i wanted to tell dem hw shocked i am . and i laughed . ok . dat was shit . Fcuk~ i was'nt myself sia dat time . Denn went to da canteen . Waited for Syaiful . denn went there again . diz time, IZZ and Syaiful heard da doorknock berbunyi . so shitt . okay. denn Makcik keluar, i was told by Amirah, Syaiful and her saw a white figure behind da MakCik . ok . Shitt . denn i walked . i didnt want to walk, bt sth pulls me forward. so i was standing outside da toilet .

&& ohh shitt! i feel more cold, my headache gettin worse and i wanted to vomitt . haiyakk~ ok. BULLSHIT . SHIT . SHIT . SHIT . denn went down . i kept hinking abt dat figure . i dont noe whutt figure laa sia . Chibai laa!~ denn went to Interchange with IZZ . met up with Adk Diyan . walk2 . denn took 69 . blabla . went home .

Dad went home with Nasi Ayam's! whee~ thankz Dada~ haha! (:
denn Dad went to my bedroom . My pants, he took it . and there was a $1 and Towel . This towel has blood on it . Dad asked me who's diz belongs to . I said i dont noe .
Dad asked me why there's blood .
I said, i really dont noe . he placed dat thing at da dining table and wen i wantde to take it just now, it dissapear . im damn speechless sia .
But whatever, God is da creater of all . i dont have to be scared ryte ? RYTE?

ok . Heyy babe! where were u seyh ? u told me u wanted to take lunch wt me? haiyakk~ where's ur call baby ? mangkuk! haha~ see ya tonight girl! (:

~Shaze~
with love . (:

2007-02-22T02:55:00.000-08:00

All i asked for god just now's morning around 3+ is

Take away my anxiety ! (:

and yess, I Do suck ! Happy now Asshole ? && please stop calling me a bitch, im nt, but u are . (:

To my friends; thankz fo all da help u guys . Butt, besties' noe more about my problems . I wont tell my regular friends coz i dont want ya'll to know coz u ain't gon give a damn . Regular Friends will do dat . (: Ohh! regular friends only will say, "cheer up" . Bestie's will encourage me and help me thru . Thankz bestie's ayte. Love ya'll! ok .

Friends. u dont know whutt im into . Thank anw, but, my problem's are not regular problems . Its da problem dat, no one, i said NO ONE will NOT be sad . seriuzly . i dont wanna post this into my blog bcoz it'll be hurt for me to tell ya'll and im embarresed . I AM! OKAY?! wanna know, just tell me PERSONALLY . ok ? fine with u? if not, FUCK U! u dont know hw it feels to be like me, u dont know my pain, my frustration, my stresses . all u know abt me, i always havin fun, its dhe outside, never in dhe inside . U GOT THAT? U GOT THAT BITCH? sorry, im just damn freaking stress . AND do u even know hw it feels people lookin down on u ? and even worst, dey say shit abt ur fam, u think datz outta hand ? if yes, FUCK U, ur right bitch. yah.

To dat person: i'll never tell people who are u. but what ever u do, dont say bullshit abt my fam okay? If not, ur life, i swear, UR MUTHAFUCKING LIFE WILL BE TERRIBLE AND U"RE FAMILY WILL HAVE TO MEET ME UP AND I WILL PERSONALLY SAY SHIT ABT U AND SAY SHIT ABT UR FAM. U LIKE DAT? DO U? OHH, NO EK? DENN WHY DA FUCK U DID THIS TO ME. MSN, PHONE CALLS LEHH CKP BANYAK UHH, MEET AKU ARH SIAL! TAKOT PEH ? AKU TAK TAKOT DENGAN SAPER2 LAA SIA . MARI DATANG, KALAU NK MATI . I DONT FIGHT WITH PEOPLE WHO'S NT IN TROUBLE WITH ME . FUCK U ! OKAY?! BITCH! FUCK OFF LAA !

Barcelona Lost to Liverpool by 2-1 ! Thankz to Abang Kamal, he told me da score . and i was a lil bit happy dat morn . LIVERPOOL BAYBEH! (: yeahh . denn bathe, went out ard 6 . i wanted to get out of da house and i wanted to be alone fo awhile . afta dat, went to meet Gadafi and wirda, went to school wit em .

Okay . Geography was damn siow . haha! Tomorrow History Test laa DEYY!! babibu~ im stuyding ryte now sia . Okay . denn was Art . Whee~ Cher did nt came ! whee~ denn took pics ! haha! giler! denn recess . Denn was PCCG . haha! merepek! i got my photo takin' picha! handsome lioaz. Muker Gadafi in dat pic, muker slumber . xD

Denn was there, SCIENCE . wheee~ && tomorrow doin practical's! yay laa! I've learned abt lunar and solar eclipse laa sey . padahal da tawu, bt i forgotten. whee~
And thenn was CME . whee~ fun laa sey . Denn Mathematics! dammit! i get 21/30 for Chapter 2 test! babi!! and now i noe my stupid && careless mistakes . ughs~ im dissapointed of ASSuandy . babi laa ASS! smackie ass babi! xD

denn afta school, kena kejar ngn security coz my friends smoke. i did not ek! yeahh. wheee~ fun laa sia . Denn takraw. my regu, firdaus && haris, lost to da B Boys . 11-15 . haha! whee~ haha! funn laa takraw. denn went home . now laa. chatting laa horr . whee . ok2 . im done . Dada~

~Shaze~
with love .

I aint Scared .

2007-02-21T04:05:00.000-08:00

To Yaw Ladies :

I've been single and im kinda in need . Yaw ladies noe whutts on my mind ? Well, here, i wann tell u lil sth . Whoever really intrested in me, well, leave a tag . I been kinda lonely nowadaes && im searching fo a right princess to make my dreams come true . Knahmean ? All u have to do is,
*Well-mannered .
*Knows how to treat me .
*Love me not bcoz of my looks but my heart .
*True to da game .

yeah . and i'll give u everything dat u want in me . Im a straight forward guy . Im One Girl to Love yaw . so, if u really intrested , add me at msn/friendster, shaze33@hotmail.com . and if u dont have it, u can leave a tag . or ask anyone in my links for my number ayte .

Im waiting fo da One . (:

Well, datz dat . Woke up at 3.30 in da morn as i could'nt sleep . I kept on thinking what will happen in da future, whether its good, bad or worst . & i can stop crying dat time . Went to school, waited for Gadafi && Wirda at da pondok, dey were late . So went to school, and went to da school's pondok . Met Faiz, Julie, Haziqah, Diyana && Syaiful . I kept thinking about my problem's . Denn sudden tears fell . aww shitt! denn blabla . assembly ground! . Miss Nurul asked whether im ayte or not , i said, yeah .

Miss Felicia didnt come today . Alaaaa . Denn was Science . No Practical bt FUN! FUN! -.-'. Denn recess . i was nt feeling as my own ASS , denn Gadafi && Wirda make a lil of ASS comeback! denn after recess was English . Walandress ! Kepala da pening, da comprehension lagi pening ! taik ! Denn no Assembly, Mr. Seng && Miss Nurul came in . Miss Nurul talk to me in private .

Miss Nurul : Are u okay ? Sick ?
ASS : ok . not sick uh .
Miss Nurul : den why u're eyes are swollen and i saw u cry and cry ?
ASS : i haf some problems onli, datz ol' .

Datz all uhh . others i dont wanna tell, later i cry again . People, im crying nt bcoz im sissy or whut, im hurt bcoz i haf too much problems, u dont noe whutt it feels like to be like me. If u wanna noe hw much pain am i in now, poke a needle to ur eye and feel da pain . && last night i almost wanted to kill myself . I was in da kitchen wit da knife and lil sis saw me and stopped me .

haiyakk~ so go on . After school went to eat lunch with Wirda && Gadafi at KFC . saw TAMPENESIANS! xD -.-' . denn went lepak at Sunplaza . && anotha phone call wen i was at da Croco while im sittin alone . Again . anotha prob . BULLSHIT LAA . can u people hire someone who can kill me or whutt ? ughs!~

and now i just came back from da hospital . ayte ? im done with this shit k!? bye!

~Shaze~
in rage furiously .

PS: FUCK U ASSHOLE ! DONT TALK SHIT ABOUT MY FAMILY . I KILL U . I SWEAR IF U BLOW DAT SHIT AGAIN BITCH! (:

I'll Build Up

2007-02-20T04:17:00.000-08:00

Heyy People! wheee~ today was awesome !

Met with Bestie's today! Nazhurah , Atika && Gadafi . had lotssa fun! bought em kinder bueno! haha! wheee~ so, lepak at NorthPark . Funny laa sia . Gadafi kene kacau Amirah rabak2! xD
Nazhurah's plan! xD . wheee~
denn blablabla . went to inter . denn went to KFC to eat . a msg from Sofiah , she said , "i hate you ! u told me you takader pompan laen ! penipu ! " . -.-'

Eh pompan! i takada pompan laen laaa bodoh! im single arse! i haf countless girls in my hands . haaha! so, if u hate it, envy me . Whutt can i say ? Im hawt . -.-' ok daa . haha! I saw Syafiq kecik at da traffic light . denn afta dat, went to meet dad and fam . went to East Coast .

Baby, i'll leave all my girls if you were mine . Shitt . aintt diz like romantic? Riding bikes and asked you're number ? da way u smiled at me really makes me melt . Baby, i asked you're number ryte? and now, i lost it . So if you're reading my Blog, PLEASE LEAVE A MESSAGE . Please? okay . and thankz fo givin me da unsaved number baby . She's fine too, bt i want you .
Da conversation goes like :

Me; Heyy ladies! can gif me a minute or two ?
Them; yess? whutt do u want ? (she being so shy, damn!!!)
Me; can i get to know ya'll ? i mean u .
Them; which one ?
Me; both will do, bt i want u, (in brown tee)
She; owhs . here's my number . ********
Me; thank you hawttie . i'll call u tonight ? around 9 ?
She; okay . (: call me ok .
Me; owh sure i will . btw, whutts ur age ?
She; 13 . den u ?
Me; 14 .
She; i tot u were like 17 .
Me; and i tot u were like 15 . gotta go! later i call u hawttie! ((:
She; bye! (with a big smile on her face) .

haizz . denn i was so stupid . Damn too happy, turned on da song My Love . and i totally forgot to save her number !!!!!! ughs~ haizz . denn went to bedok sempang . eat! denn went home . now uh . guys . im kinda having a problem . and im damn sad . so anything just beep me ayte . holla~

~Shaze~
with love .

PS: Why can't i have a happy life ?! :'(

Love Potions .

2007-02-19T06:51:00.000-08:00

Heyy there people! i just came backk from JOHOR BAHRU! -.-'

woke up damn early sia . ard 5.30, denn everyone aint awake yett so i decided to KNOCKOUT again . Woke up again ard 8 . saw lil sis used da comp . GANGGU UHH! haha! denn i went online . Denn bro went home . whee~ i miss him laa . denn i wanted to pangsai sia , denn he went to da toilet, He shouted, "ABG KELUAR BILIK NK PAKAI COMP! " keluar dulu uhh! haha! denn he went out, i wanted to go in, DAD went in pulakk! ishk~

so i told bro, tunggu dad keluar baru lehh pakai comp ! =D haha! den he agreed, bodoh sgt kn! denn dad went out, i used da TOILET . and i feel, my head langgar da mirror . MANGKUK! haha . wheee~ denn get dressed up . went down . masok kereta, PLAYED PSP . ok ! haha!
denn JAM SIA!!! urghs~ i played Winning Eleven 9 gerek sia! whee~

denn sampai JB, teroz g cekek! denn afta cekik! go to MAKRO . blablabla . SHOP! makcik's shops uhh . denn afta dat, went to Giant . and dammit , many hawtties ! haha! a girls asked me for my number, i gave her 999 . muker slumber plak tuu, hahaha! denn i bought sth for Abg Aidil, Sampoerna . -.- i dont smoke ek! ishk~ i stopped sia, coz i dont wanna die!

haha! denn went home . JAM again, so i do what ? play PSP! -.- Owh! i forgot to tell ya'll! i tahan my Taik for 5 hours coz da Malaysia toilet really disguted me . ok! hahah! whee~ denn went home . tolong angkat barang . denn went straight to da toilet! haha! buang bomb!

and now i updated u bodoh! and im chattin . && im damn tired .
dada~

tomorro meetin Nazhurah, Gadafi and mayb atika lemon! Wirda tak tahu uhh! haizz .

~Shaze~
with love . ((:

Want You

2007-02-17T03:13:00.000-08:00

Heyy ya'll people! (:

Here, reporting live from Singapore . Where all da fun's at . -.-'

I made some lyrics from da song Want You - Lloyd Ft. Lil Wayne .
here it goes .

STOP! wait a minute . I forget to tell ya'll what's feeling .
I've been thru many girls, bt now i stopped da loving .
I just wanna be da one fo ya tonight .
Can i be ur friend ? damn, its right , yeah its tight . diz is hw i feel .
I just wanna noe, whether im havin u for real .
Let me show u some thangs, mayb take u out, girl .
And mayb we can just have fun girl .
I know u can't wait to be in love, with me .
U know dat i just fall in love with u
and u'll reliezed love is dhe only key . what it do ?
i noe u wanna role wit he, bt think abt me .
u dont wanna waste ur chance with a hot lookin dude like me .
da best romance which is in me .
All my life, i prayed fo someone like you .
Never gon find anotha lover sweeter and precious like you .
i dont noe, wad da hell ya gon do .
bt i gotta find ur love clue . make it all simple .
let's take a deep breathe and shake it like mr.wiggle .
ur promises, ur voices, everthang is inside my brain .
imma say it once , imma say it twice .
imma playa, its true, bt ill change da game fo u .
Imma Playa, wen it comes to marrige, Imma PLAY HER .
i know diz love tender is so true .
so imma end it with, Goodbye, All I want is You .

so datz da dat . aha! da lyrics are just spittin . its no real . (:

Last night was damn tough fo me . i asked a breakup from Sabrinaa (:
Its damn hard. shitt . haizz. at least we're still friends ryte?
Like who wants to make enemies? DUHH!
And last night, went out . haha! HAFIZ!! TAK TAHU PAKAI BAJU!
he wore diz shirt which has holes . haha! mcm org baru kene tembak laa .
denn, Hilmi wrote diz thang on da paper "Im a jerk . Kick Me Ass (:" .
He paste it on Hafiz's backk . and we start kicking his ass .
I laugh like a sicko . Denn Hafiz wrote, "I suck, Kick me ." he paste dat on my back .
denn i was being hitt by dem . PANTAT AKU SAKET LAA PANTAT!!
haha! funn laa sia with dem . But hangin out with my besties are more fun! (:
I miss lepak-ing with Nazhurah and Atika laa! haha!

Well, today was damn bored . Tought of teman-ing Nadhirah just now . She wanted to take lunch with me and go shopping ! Well, she canceled it, and DUHH! i was lazy also to go out . Goin to Vivo is a long way . Malas uhhh ! haha! I played da comp till now . Well, dere's a break laa . haha! Chatting with Azmeera is fun! (:
My house is so sunyi sia today . haizz . and last night i slept ard 3+ . haizz .
Dad just now said , "Jangan ingat kau dah besar, kau boleh buat aper2 eh . Weekends and Fridays, da latest u can go home is 3 am . Datz all" . denn i said, "Mangkuk! baek laa seyh!"
haha! yeap2.
To all Chinese People, Happy Chinese New Year Yaww! ((:
Gong xii Faa Chai !
Summer love baybeh! ((:
Today ate Pizzahut, Chocs and many other stuffs .
And i drank alot of REDBULL!
wheewhoo~ i love u people who love me laa . (:
well, im done here . goodbye. mwah my lovers, MWAH!

and owh! i totally forgot! i have good news .
Im goin to have Singin Lessons, and im quitting Piano Lessons! (:

~Shaze~
with love . (((:

2007-02-16T05:08:00.000-08:00

Hey there guys~! Long time uhh didnt update? haha! Well, i didnt went home ytd, get punched, afta dat, i went to da Stadium . Walan dress . Hakiim ferst laa seyh . haha! whee~

Well, On Sports Day, I got Qualified for 3 events, they are;
~ 100 m
~4x100 m
~4x400 m

neat ryte? haha! am i damn fast or whutt? Im nt confident sia i can win . They are many other redbull's more faster den me sia . haiyakk~ haha! so err, afta da Upper Secondary's Heats, i went to TM, received a phone call from Bro, and i was damn moody . And babi, i almot cried . Why must dey fight ? Ughs~ Denn if dey are like dat, how about us? I mean, us siblings? u gon leave us ? Fuck u~!

How about Lil Sis ? She's fucking still small, why does she have to go through this ?! And bcoz of u, i didnt went home yesterday . I was out at Pasir Ris Park . Spend da night there, with no money, no food, only drinks . I know how much u suffer, bt do u want to see me suffer? whutt laa sia? Not even a msg saying, "Wan, maner kau pergi tak baleq2?" i just want us, i mean us, da whole fam, to be happy . Fuck uhh bills, fuck uhh other people . Its all about us . We need each other for help . and im nt really close to da family, well, i will, if everythang works out well . {owh gosh, im emo-ing} .

And Do u even my friend, Joey Hilmer, who died ? Do u even bothered ? NO! and dat really makes me sad . If everyone's gone, everyone who i love are gone, who will be there to be a shoulder for me ? People make mistakes, everyone does . And why can't just forgive and forget ? are ya two dat evil ? I cried every single night, thinking what if, there'll be no more us . We be seperated . Think . If u really love me . U'll think about me . :'(

Whuttever . So Just now at skool was okay . (: Syaiful's performance, was style! After skool, went to fetch sis, denn ard 1.30 liddat, i dont noe uhh, took da cab and went to Pasir Ris fo dat fight . Denn went back to tamp . Haf lunch with Jab and denn went home .

Check my friendster, a new friend request . Add her on msn . And get to know each other . Thankz fo da add! Her name is, Azmeera . haha . Had alot of fun chattin with a new friend . And i was called, Mr. Friendly Guy . hahaha! whee~ ((:

And Fitri! thankz fo da song, Last Night ek . Gerek laa! haha! denn ard 5.40, i went down, took da cab, and went to Eastpoint . Bought sth and went to Changi Village . Eat Ayam Penyek, 2 plates laa badot! whee~ denn went to da pantai . Chilled .

afta dat, disturb bapoks! haha! kekek sia! ok2 . went home, now, blogging . whee~ i wanna go to msn laa.. bye! whee~

~Shaze~
with love.. ((:

PS: I MISS U . ((:

Promises

2007-02-10T05:06:00.000-08:00

Heyy there guys! What It Do ? haha! dammit im bored, whereas, im nw hyper.. haha!

wheewoo!

I owe Julie and Haziqah Redbull! XD. Today was awesome! Went to da hospital fo a check up diz morn. My Lungs still hurts laa.. and plus, my lungs is bengkak! walao! denn went backk home..

Dad woke up! asked me to buy 10 pratas! haha! denn go! at da shop, i saw Mika! babi kau! aku bukan perokok lagi laa! haha!! so denn walk2.. and i saw AUNTIE JUAL BUBBLE TEA! so i smiled.. haha! denn went backk home, on the way home, i saw Isyam! (: haha! i miss dat bestie laa. so went home.

Dad! haha! funny sia! denn watched Freaky Friday at home. dad said "wan, pompan tuu lawah, blg mama ayah nak! bleh tak?" haha! denn i said, "otak ayah! haha! tak dapat uhh!" . Freaky Friday really makes me laugh sia! haha! den dad went to work, i hugged him. aww~ (:

So left, me, sis and mum at home.. we just ate and im still hungry. so asked mum i wann go KFC, so i went and bough 2 zingers meal and 4 cheese fries and 4 suimai's.. whee~ i ate alot ryte? but im still thin ryte ? haha! so after dat, sit back and relax at home. MSN! CHATTING! haha! and i got a can of redbull! i drank it! woo! denn finish i was so boring. so asked mum again for money, bought 4 more redbulls. went home, gave sis one. denn i drink! woo! 2 more cans left, den drink anotha one. now left one at da fridge..

Guys! u shld been there sia! i was damn crazy while drinking redbull! i went downstairs and shouted at da road, YAMM SENNGG!! hahaha! u see, REDBULL is love.. haha! whee~ so then, RAI called me, went down, lepaking till 8+. went home. haha! now uh! well, im kinda freaking in a headache. TOO MUCH REDBULL LAA. haha! whoo! no op for me! yeahh! =X

ayte, so tomorrow i got ugama, denn went backk home, im thinking of lepaking uhh. bored laa sia! haha! IM NOW A NO SMOKER PERSON! IM SMOKE FREE. do u believe it? all thankz to my darlingg, wirda, gadafi, haziqah and others! woo! yeahh! haha! ayte! i gotta go! nk aim ATM machine ( AKU TENGAH MEMBEROT!) haha! bye! miss me ayte

~Shaze~

with love..

PS: I MISS U ! (((:

2007-02-08T02:28:00.000-08:00

Heyy there! hw ya'll ? Im currently sick uhh guys. haiyakk~ lettme tell ya'll whutt happened diz passed few days..

Sunday

It was damn gerek! I was'nt dat sick dat dae! left home ard 7+. Went to dhe Airport . Had fun with Cuzzies.. Kak Shika had to go backk to Aussie. we sure gon miss herr . well, i saw miss marlia and her people. haha! so, she tegor, igt jgk ek. wakakakaka!! so err, send kak shika. aww. saw Sis cried.. kak nana cried.. kesian laa.. abg kamal! nk stab tk nangis konon!! haha!!

let's just wish Kak Shika All da best ayte? whee~ im certain u'll passed da University and haf a great Future.. wheee~ all da best cuzz!! So after dat, we went to err, Macdonalds! to haf our breakfast! ahaha! yum yum! i ate Big Breakfast! tk cukup, bought anotha 2 fillet! haha!
wheee~ hahah!~ and Abg adee tried something really disgusting yet, he said, "Delicious!" haha! He put Grape Honey, chllies, butter.. wekkK!! eeeww! haha!! denn da makciks and pakciks decided to go to sentosa! wheee~psst~ noticed dat my cuzz and i are very2 macho ? haha!

see, hw short my cuzzies are! haha! im way tall.. hahaha!! Me and Kak nana, im more cuter ryte? hahaha!! whee~

Lil Sis muker slumber.. haha!!Da two afiqah's.. hahaha!!

Sentosa Baybeh!!

Yeahh! reached sentosa! OMG~ The Beach Adventures. Joe!! remembered diz place? haiyakk~ used to go there and smack! haha!! whee~ walan dress.. Me, Abg Kamal, Abg Adee, Kak nana, reminice da times we dig those sands in 2000.. at pasir ris park.. haha! wheewoo!! Denn i splashed water at Abg Adee, Aslam, Abg Is, Abg Kamal. Abg adee asked atam and abg is to grabbed me. Abg adee hold me hands, atam and abg is hold my legs.. count of 3, they threw me in da water. and i get all wet. walao!!~

haha! see? hahahx.. denn blabla.. Baba bought me a sentosa towel. whee~ thankiez! wanna see da video ? its inside kak anna's Handphone.. XD . so denn, i washed up. denn off backk. denn after dat, went to eat Ice Kachang! whee~ and denn, i bought a Ice Longan! makan dengan semangat taw!!wheewoo!! see my eyes? hahaha!! okay laa.. denn naek train! wheewhoo!! me and atam was looking at sth.. haha! after dat, naek kereta && i slept. haha! i was in Cik Basri's Car with Atam & Abg Kamal!Abg kamal is seriuzly sleeping! hahahah!!! && i was having a bad headache.. denn went to Cik Basri's house.. denn went home.. Denn sleep, to get ready for Monday!

Monday

Woke up early, met up with my dear darlingg.. sent herr to da MRT station. Denn went off to school b4 dat, i gave her a huggie! haha! wheewoo!! i miss u so muchh uhh dear.. haiyakk~ Monday was okay laa.. i was sick.. dammit

Tuesday

I was on MC. i really wanted to go to school. da doc gave me a shocking news.. ishk~ and im crying abt dat news.. haizz.. Tuesday, i slept fo a long time.. whee.. denn went Pasir Ris. pack up fo wensday.. I dreamt dat i lost her, she left me, and wen i woke up, i cried.. :'(

Wednesday

i wass damn sick sia. PCCG, i was damn mabok.. denn went to da sick bay. sleep there till ard 2. Thankz ek people fo teman-ing me, IZZ, Nabila, Namirah, Azraei and others.. wheewhoo! sayang laa u people! (((: denn ard 3, Dad picked me up. denn i went home, straight to bed.. woke up ard 8+, ate, vomit, sleep again.. hahaha!!

Today

thought of goin to school, bt i sadar ard 8.30. haha! and i dreamt dat i had to make grillz, permenant girllz.. walandress.. mangkok sia! woke up, masak, eat, denn went out. lepak2 japs.. denn went home.. watched HBO, Shark Tale.. wheewhoo! i miss watching dat movie.. haha! now im vommitting on my shirt laa.. cannot tahan.. haizz.. i gotta go uhh.. byebye. do wish me to get well ayte.. (((:

PS: I MISS U DARL!! PROMISE U WONT LEAVE..

~Shaze~

with love.. ;')

Setback.

2007-02-02T02:10:00.000-08:00

Heyy there people! how ya'll doin? nvr update fo da past 2 days ek? or mayb 1 day? or whuttever! haha! okay2.. ill tell ya'll whutt happened laa eks..

Thursday

Skool was awesome! whee~ Geography was da ferst period. && Madam Sim was fun laa! haha! suddenly we talk abt da human's productions.. haha! wheee~ haha! denn *GadaFi* was being bullied by me, haha! OW GADA! haha.. denn after dat lesson was whutt ek? i forgot laa.. uhhuh! Mathematics! haha! whee~ i won *GadaFi*!! i got 26/30 fo da test and *GadaFi* got 23/30! haha! denn me, Faiz && Syahin kept saying, "OW GADA!" haha! fun laa stoinkies! haha! whee~

so after dat, i dont noe uhh whutt lesson, so whuttever, Cabot da LifeSkills workshop, after skool, was Haziqah's Bersday bash! haha! funn laa taik! There was me, *GadaFi*, IZZ, Julie!, Syarmilla && POOJA! haha! *WirDa* && syaiful missed da fun! hahas! so, went out of school, in front of da shool, first was da plain COLD WATER dat me and POOJA spilled on herr! haha! after dat, i took da tepongs, and take all out and put on her, haha!

&&, aint diz cool?? hahah! fun laa! denn haziqah ran after me, TOO BAD UHH! AKU LARI PANTAS! hahah! whee~ aww, so da KASIHAN LAA EK.. haha. whee~ denn went backk to school, went in to da canteen and everyone's staring at herr.. haha! kesian! :P

denn went to Syaiful's blok, haziqah wanted to wash up denn! Syaiful putted some topping on da cake, haha! means, Haziqah's da cake, and he putted BlueBerry ice on her! haha! KESIAN LAA.. haha! btw, my fav sweater is on FLOUR! taik tols.. haha! *GadaFi* && IZZ didnt do anything and kena sia! too bad laa! haha! aww.. denn Syarmilla took a bucket of water, spilled all on haziqah, denn siow uh! haziqah hugged everyone coz she wanted people to get wet! haha! siowanss! denn after shitt, she get changed..

Denn left me, *GadaFi*, *WirDa* && IZZ, went to buy ciggs.. denn went backk school.. after dat, i went off wit *WirDa* and Syaiful.. watched Syaiful played football, denn ard 5++ went to send *WirDa* home.. denn saw my SAYANGG!! wheee~

denn talk2, went to da bus stop, whee~ HUGGED HERR! happy laa.. darl2, cheer up kays, dont be too stressed abt ur probs taw.. anythang, im awlaez here fo ya.. (((:

went home, online, denn had some probs.. only da people who i noe noes abt it..

Today

today was fun ek! haha! whee~ first lesson was HISTORY! haha! mautts, nasebb i didnt sleep! today was abt invasion of Japanese to SEA. SOUTH EAST ASIA.. denn get listenn to my songs on da fone. thankz Miss Shanti! haha!! after History was English! half of da class was late fo lesson and was sitted outside da class.. naseb i was nt late!

denn SCIENCE! whee~ Experiments baybeh!!

yeap2.. see dat green light norrt? style ryte? Mr Lai tought diz colour light.. denn HARIZ! babi laa kau! stupidd! coz of ur assholeness, da whole class gotta stopped da experiments! arghh! taik! denn went fo recess, ate && denn went backk to class.. MOTHER TOUNGE! arghh! boringg! bt MISS NURUL (MY NEIGHBOUR) GEREK!! haha!

whatt?! im having detention on Monday for 4 hours? 1 hour coz i just said, "TETEK UHH KAU?!" alaaa! CIKGU!! ur my neighbour! alalala! lehh laa.. 2 hours jekk.. Monday sakett uhh! nnti kene g hospital, can be excuse? plss?? haizz.. FCUK~ =X

denn after skool, ewnt to Syaiful's class. haha! fun! denn out i go to home.. thought of meeting Jab and Syafiq, denn, Jab had NCC.. taik laa! arghh! haha! so err, changed, went backk to school!Played soccer, and AMIRAH! was dere! haha! after playing football, i went home uh..

my head was so freakin pening! haha! so sleep, denn eat a lil, gonn watch pearl harbour later.. at home! haha! must learn da history of peral harbour! SEMANGAT! haha! okays readers, tag me!

i forgot to meetup wit Sabrinaa, i slept uhh.. haiyakk~ sorry darl! and btw, I MISS U LAA DARL! hug again cn? haha! wheee~ love u alott! mwah~

~Shaze~

with love..

I've found herr! <33

2007-01-31T04:07:00.000-08:00

Da date {290107} was a special day for me and her. Well, finally get attached with herr.. whee~! Happy laa ASSuandy. he seriuzly is. wheeee~! hahaha! yeap. I asked herr to be myne and denn she accept! Thankz darl! I LOVE YA LOTSS! let's be together as one forever.. insyallah! whee~!

Ok2.. today i woke up ard 5.30.. bathed, get dressed and outta go to under Sabrinaa's blok! whee~! met her! yeap yeap.. whee~ denn sent herr to Tamp Mrt, denn go to school! whee~

On da way to school, met up wit 2 GILAS, syarmilla and Julie! so went to school wit em, denn meet with my PEOPLE! haha!

Lepas itu, CLASS! whee! first period was Mathematics! walan dress! i had a test and i did nt even study laa gila! haha! well den. ard qquestions 4&5 was making me scratching my head, denn sit backk relax denn terkenTOOOT! haha! everyone lookin at me sia! bacinn! tahu jekk ek! haha! && Miss Felicia did laugh! haha! i mean smile laa.. haha! Hariz laa nie ketawerr! babi! haha! and btw, i was too confuse till i FARTED! hahah! whee~!

After Maths was Science! baskett sia!! No practical work till Friday! mangkuk pinggan! alaa.. Mr. Lai! i want practical laa! haha! plss lorhh.. Science was fun.. Boon said to Mr Lai, "I Don't Know How to Draw SIA!?", which means dat, "I Don't know how to draw PRAWN", haha! Datz what Mr. Lai told da whole 2A! haha! siow siow! 'SIA - PRAWN' funny sia! (funny prawn)! hahahhaa!! i laugh like fuck laa! denn after dat was RECESS!!

Ate with my class denn came along polly. eyh2 salah, came along wirda and haziqah! haha! I love eating those Cheese Hotdogs laa! so Sedaps! haha! whee~! after dat, sent em to their class.. && AMELIA! whutt did i owe ya?! ahaha!! bluek! gila laa! denn was ENGLISH! i love english sia! whee~! Madam Sim! ur fun laa giler! haha! denn was there ASSEMBLY!

*GadaFi* pantat laa! hahah! tgk jerr da dancers, btw, Kak IZZ! ur performance on stage just now was GREAT! i did not laugh ek! haha! Well, i learn sth abt dance.. Chinese dance haf 2 types. i forgot both! haha! i was hyper at da hall! haha! whee~! same time i msg2 with my dear dear Darlingg! XD.. so errr, then there was D&T.. -.-

Boring sia ! bt today! Thankz uhh Seng! haha! i didnt finish my drawing sia! and my D&T workbook have not bought yett! i lied dat its at home! buahahhaah!! whee~ denn Literature! mangkuk! aku malas laa! haha! Funn laa! haha! i was quiet at Lit Class today.. nt so quiet laa.. bt attentive.. haha! denn after dat was da last freaking period which is CME! Miss Nurul! my neighbour! haha! mcm TOOOOT! haha! ok2.. tomorrow's watching a video abt REPONSIBILITY!? haha okay!? haha..fweee..

so after skool, lepak at school with *GadaFi*, Haziqah && Wirda, Faiz! tag along! haiy0o0.. faiz, cheer up kays, dont cry laa.. kau nangis buat aku maken sedih.. there's always a reason fo a breakup and if u really love Julie, let herr have her space ferst denn u can do like whutt ya always do ayte. Aku pon tgk Julie kesian psl Datok dyer.. haiyakk~ Just settle fo da better ayte u guys, Just be happy my friends! wheee~! ok.. -.-

Watched Da soccer match in skool.. Chai Chee V.S. Bedok View, i dont noe who wins uhh, who cares anywae? haha! i saw Shaikh! from Chai Chee, kawanku dari kawanku Ildham.. whee~ dyer tk nampak akunyer, conferm, daa DIAM! ahah! denn played water shooting! haha! Haziqah! tomorro's ur badae kan? aku bawak semuer bender yng kotor! mcm cicak, lipas dan macam2.. haha!! funn! whee~ Maliki! aku nk maen PSP game BurnOut kau! bsok ek! thankz laa! hahaha! whee~! FCUK~!

after dat, i went home bfor Tampines Sec V.S. Victoria Sec, da score is 0-2, Victoria won! Congrats, and tampinesians! u did ur best! i noe! haha! ceyy mcm paham sakr! aku da laa tak dpt select utk takraw! tahu datang sakr! arghh!! gram laa SIAL!! ishk~!

Anyway, after dat, went to inter with Faiz.. pujuk2 dyer.. denn went home.. after dat, eat, denn out i go to PPIA. long time i didnt go there.. haha! Miss Ustadz Zali! haha! gelak2.. diz sunday must go to my Klass at 12.30 ! whee~! -.- Bayar yuranku, denn bought 4 hotdog buns! whee~ sedap2.. denn went backk to my crib, denn BLAWH! i online, smsin my syg! I miss herr many2 laa! whee~! i love u sooo many dear!

So err, now listenin to da song Smack Dat(remix) from The Re-Up album, woahh! mcm nk joget uhh! wheee~! haha! i loike~! so whut will happen tomorro?

GEOGRAPHY! -.-

MATHS!! <33>

And i ono whutt else subjects! alaa! i'm loving school diz days laa!

Friday! i dont want HISTORY!! arghh!! mangkuk! Miss Shanti! lain topic laa! babi!

haha!! Darl! tomorro if i meet u up, HUG ME CAN CAN?! hahaha! whee~

hahah! wheee laa! i love u laa darl! i really do !! saaayaangg dia! wheee~

dahh laa, ASSuandy da penat ahk. nnti nk tido.. penat giler uhh nyarie! SINGAPORE! win ek!

GO SINGAPORE GO! GO GO! ASS HERE SUPPORTING! TO WIN! haha!!! XD

One Word to describe Sabrinaa <33

HAWT!

whee~ i love herr laa.. k laa! gtg! bye! love Sabrinaa! mwah!

~Shaze~

with love..

PS: Raymond ! u owe us a bottle of SODA!! haha! gaahs!

More and More..

2007-01-29T03:46:00.000-08:00

Heyy there my Readers, well, I LOVE U PEOPLE WHO LOVE MY BLOGGIE LAA.. thnkiez! whee~! today was sian laa.. XD.. boring, Literature was ok laa ek.. hahaha! wheee~! so laans, RECESS! whee! ate horrfun with CHILLIES! wheee~! hahahaha!! ASSuandy is crazy laa today! i ono why, mayb cant wait to meet SABRINAA next morning or mayb, had fun on the fone with her Yesterday.. hahaha!! walan dress laa.. i was kinda sick lorhh.. denn MUSIC kena diri under da sun sia. kimakk!~ denn last period was MATHEMATICS! Miss Felicia, tahu ek dyer aku marah pasal bising.. buahahaha!! whee~! i love Miss Felicia as my Teacher, wheee~ aku giler laa seyh! Breathe Breathe Breathe!! blom! hahaha! aku giler! whee~!

well, after skool, play football && takraw at skool.. haha! fun sia! listen to songs while playing was loike, im HIGH! hahah!! wheee~ haha! denn i was thinking abt walking home.. walk on my way. denn saw da TAMPINESIANS playing football.. haha! ingatkn nk maen sia. denn faiz, hafiz troz nk g BEST DENKI, dengki tol... haha! denn went there, Hafiz's mp3 cannot on.. batt low agaknyer arhh.. haha! den went home..

Computer on, bathed, get dressed, played da comp.. I was online, whee~! Chatted wit my dear Sabrinaa.. whee~! fun2! tomorrow morn gon meet herr! whee~! cant wait! hahah! i love herr laa.. can? =D.. hahah! well, tomorro's gon have PE.. boring laa.. bluek~! hahas.. okays laa.. datz whutt happened today, and i cut my finger.. hahah!

wakakaka!! kekek! aku giler! haha! okay2.. i loike diz pic laa! siak tol! haha! Sabrinaa! Nyce watch ryte? hahah!

ayte2! ya noe laa ryte, im hawt nk mati.. haha! Is'sha has a new name, ASSHAH! hahah! bluek arh ko! hahah! sayang laa bestieku! whee~! okays laa.. gtg laa.. nk mamam ubat.. whee~!

PS: i love herr laa.. can can?? XD she's my hawt sweetest thang mayn! haha!

~Shaze~

with love..

Move Along..

2007-01-28T02:37:00.000-08:00

Heyy there Lovely ASSuandy's Blog Readers! whee~! Currently, ASS is sick.. so err, nth! haha! Yesterday was Fuuuyoooh! AKU PENING GILA! XD.. Did kinda stupid stuffs like Dancing Naked! haha! coz no one was ard after i bathed.. haha! so open up my towel, close curtains so neighbours cant see, Music damn loud, DANCE DANCE! haha and da song was, SMACK DAT, dancing and i smacked my own ASS! hahaha! CRAZY RYTE?! haha..denn mom went home, saw me nude, run to my room and get dressed, SHE MARAH ME SIA! hahaha!! BiG Bro too. Denn dey get changed and went to da Hospital to melawat Mak!~ My makcik laa..

Dey went off, check my wallet got money, nt much, bt at least can pay da doctor's bills.. went to da Polyclinic! Denn walan dress, masok, duduk denn MUNTAH at da doc's table. Loike EWW!! denn take da ubats, went to TenderFresh to meet Jab.. haha! eat and smoke.. i wanna stop sia, cannt resist.. So, after dat, immediately went home to chat! and ferst person to chat with is, SABRINAA! whee~! fun laa, she's HAWT! yess u are my dear.. (((: denn, eat ubats.. Waited fo dad to go home.. whee~! dad went home, bought foods, denn at 2 went out to DANCE DANCE..haha.. fun laa sey! Acab kau nk mampos peh main joget kt tengah2 road?! giler!! ahha! siowans! denn ard 4 went home, and sleep! whee~!

PEOPLE! my posts are long ek? hahahaa!!

And today, woke up ard 11.45, bathed.. chatted with SABRINAA.. fun laa whee~! i loike! well, Mak is backk home! and she's welcomed backk! whee!~ i loike.. and shayana tagged me, read herr bloggie, aww.. sorry if i ever made u mad girl.. blabla.. today's quite windy ek? walan dress..

and just now, lepaking with JAB, and kena PRANK CALL by cicakman! ishk~! siak btol! maut! hahaha! ku masehh lapar laa.. eyh2.. ill update again laa tomorrow, i wann chat uhh.. haha! peace!! MUAKZ!

here are some new piccas!

ayte, done! hahah! only 2 ryte, sorry lorhh, psst, muka aku saket! ahaha!!

Sabrinaa! tag me! hahaha!

PS: I love my sweetest thang! wheee~!

~Shaze~

with love.. <33

Da Damages...

2007-01-26T04:46:00.000-08:00

Ehk! Oi! Hello!? Hi! Azuandy is my name. HAHAHAHA! well, today was great! I was sick and came to school ard 7++.. walann dress! XD Gerek! haha! ferst period was whutt arh? LUPER SAKR? haha.. only remembered Recess! Of course laa giler! Best Subject in skool! XD.. denn Mother Tounge went to da Computer Lab C, Miss Nurul tought us, which she's my neighbour! HAHA!! kewl laa.. haha! played comp! *GadaFi* sat beside me.. haha! did da Malay Project lorhh.. Abt da Malay Traditional Games.. gerek laa.. Today no Maths! alaa.. sedih... owh2.. ferst 3 periods was History.. fun laa.. too bad tk dapat tgk video.. alaa..

So, after skool, went to follow *WirDa* to herr house coz she wanna change to NCDCC uniform.. walan dress.. it took herr about 30 mins.. walao weyy! kau g tukar baju atau shopping baju atau buat baju?! haha! after dat, went backk to school lorhh.. Denn took 8, with *GadaFi* and Syahin! went to Springfield coz they had a friendly football match.. We reached, denn i saw many of my fellow assholes, eyhs salah! Friends.. HAHA! haha! so went backk home.. changed.. Denn outta go to have lunch.. denn met Eddy and Friends! also included his girl, Aishah.. whee~! had fun laa! XD..

so after lepaking, went to meet, Hilmi, walked to Paya Lebar, denn kena tumbuk kt dagu aku! Kiwakk tol! haha! nehmindlaa. hate me, hit me, aslkan i lived long sua.. haha! denn sis called me wen i was on da floor.. late to pick her up from school.. XD denn went home laa...

sorry uhh pendek! hahaha!! ill update tomorrow more.. Sabrinaa!! Tag tawz!! hehehe!!

14 Febuary ayte.. ((:
~Shaze~
with love..

We are done!

2007-01-25T04:33:00.000-08:00

Whutt up SINGAPURA!?! haha! i love dat word! FROM FAIZ! haha.. okays.. today was shitt.. seriuzly! it sucks alot! yueahh.. After da reading session, fought with Acap.. haha! funny sia! psl nie pon nk gado! so okay. I said if he touches gada, i hit him ryte? so i did, he punched me, i punched him. His tears drops, mynes too.. so bla bla.. my tears drop coz it hit my eyes, and of course laa tklehh control dat waters, so drop lorhh. haha! whuttever laa.. denn my eyesight vision was a lil bit wierd as i was sick dat morning.. haha! i defend *GadaFi* and at least he said thankz.. ok great! haha! well, denn i went straight to da General Office coz Madam Sim asked me to. so told Mr. Fathul, and he was on my side! whee~ yeahh. Haiyo. I didnt never said dem stupid, bt if u think u are, i just say, ya'll are'nt, WE AS MUSLIMS, be da part of muslims, no fightin lorhhs. if u wannt da real riot, or anything, its up to u, hit me, POLICE CASE IS ON YA. seriuz talking. I've made up my mind, if we continue diz way, well, we shld really split up if datz wad ya'll wanted la. Last year, we were damn good friends, bt diz year? after We joined da NA stream, its loike dammit! haizz.. u guys really make me dissapointed. C'mon! If u dont forgive me even though we arent in fault, its okay, at least, we dont wann make enemies. My eyesight now is still Blurr ya see.. I dont wann fight. Seriuzly. I hate fighting with u guys. If u really wann see my real voilence like whutt Hilmi saw, haizz.. nehmind.. I was really really happy till diz morning. it may be small to me, bt big to u, i understand hw ur feeling, ya'll feeling down ryte? dont be. If we can, we help u in anythang. But ryte now, im just in patience, and hadi, seth, firdaus, just now afta skool, i get away from ya'll coz i dont want any fights. I HATE IT. nehmind laa.. forget abt this..

So, after skool, WEnt out with Wirda, Azraei, Izz, Nazirul, Wan, Hafiz. haha!! fun! go smoking ferst! whee~ haha! fun! And walao weyy! Miss Nurul lived my block laa seyhs! haha! ok2.. denn after dat, Wirda followed me home to change! haha! in da bus 69, gt a sec 4 changkat changi, was crazy laa.. SS haha!! me and wirda laugh all da way sia! XD kekek!! haha!! siowanns! she danced like walaan DRESS!! XD.. haha! kekek!! tklehh tuu boleh, BOLEH ANGKATT!! XD funn laa.. denn went home, Changed.. Denn went to da bus stop, Met Farhana! talked to herr.. haha! kekek! kau da berubah banyak ek! haha! And someone from my skool like herr!? haha, aku diam2 jerr laa yerr.. haha! so, took 23, denn went to interchange, saw eddy and Arshad. yeahh! i miss em! whee~! salaman diorang.. denn me and wirda off to TRL, waited for Syaiful! whee~ denn went to old chunky! lepak at da pondok! Should have sit there laa.. haizz.. i have no hatred on anyone ek. So. we off to da playground. haha! denn went to 246 to meet a friend of myne! thankz fo da huggie bestie! whee~ haha! ok2.. denn went backk.. denn syaiful, wirda and me, went off to da MRT station. Fatal! rokok kau lomm sampai! nnti! Da supplier lomm amek! denn err, went to da hosp lorhh.. fo awhile, salaman, denn off.. fetch sista! accompy by JAB! haha! funn sia! kekekk! buat klakar giler maut nyer! XD.. haha!! so funn laa.. denn went to MAC, saw a pink shirt girl and tot it was SABRINAA.. ahah! salah org, PAISEHH!! XD haha! kekek! saw, Hisyam, Rahman and Zaky at Mac! haha! i miss ZAKY! haha! so after which, went home, phone call, Sis Mira! haha! fun laa.. thankz fo da help ek sis!

So now, just here, using ice on my left eye. Denn err, chat with people! Sabrinaa! Nadiyah adqku! and other people! haha! ramai laa.. so today, 14 miss calls in class, and 29 msges.. haha! walandress.. i cant reply laa ppl! SORRY! (((:

Wee~ so SABRINAA! i've updated! Tag taws! haha!!

To SomeOne:

Well, i really wann tell ya sth, i got a heart fo ya.. ((:

~Shaze~

with love.. (((: <33>

walao!!

2007-01-24T00:57:00.000-08:00

Hellu! Hellu!! how ya'll? ((: . Ytd was fun laa!! i loike yesterday!! And today sucks coz sumthing was on, later read lorhh..

Yesterday

School was fun laa yerr!! whee~ haha! i forgot laa all about ytd.. haha!! Denn after skool, went out with, *GadaFi*, *WiRda* and IZZ and Afiqah! Went to TM coz Afiqah wann buy her BF's birthday gift.. aww.. so sweet! Denn afta dat, Went to YELLOW coz wann do sth sth.. so tak jadi.. denn I tot wanna pierce, bt tkder duit and havent think carefully yet..XD Thenn wee~ went to SUNPLAZA.. Whee.. lepak2.. denn NANA was there, Faanaa i think and other girls.. hah! fun lahhs! Denn played at da SWING! listened to da song {Cry Me A River - Justin Timberlake} and suddenly i was feeling dat song deep deep down to my heart.. whee~ I loike! and i made a monster out of dat sand..

Like DUHH!! COOL RYTE? walao weyy! comment abt diz laa if can! XD .. I used my own naked hands.. ~whee.. ferst tyme laa yerr.. And its a monster by my own.. haha! GEREKNESS.. denn da girls haf to go, bt only NANA, IZZ and WIRDA was stl there! ~whee.. Denn b4 dat, me, *GadaFi* and *WiRda* took SYAIFUL at TAMPINES REGIONAL LIBRARY! denn went backk to SUNPLAZA.. fun lorhhs! whee~ diz is da picca's of ytd.

haha! fun gilerr seyhh!! okays2.. denn Wirda asked anyone who wanna play Blind Mice.. denn she came to me and try to cover my eyes with dat pokka dots bandenna.. walao! haha!! denn naseb i opened up that thingy. Denn without any suspicious shit, i put dat bandena onto wirda! haha!! and we played BLIND MICE ON HERR!! XD
hahhaha!! everyone keep on laughing sia!! kiwakk!! hahah! FUNN!! XD haha!! okay2.. Denn went home by bus 8! haha!! love dat bus laa!! XD Took picca's with Kak IZZ && GADA!! Here are some of em!whee!!~ and ytd was funn chattin!! Yeahh! Chatted with Mira, SABRINAA, IZZ and other people! whee~! funnn lorhhs, SABRINAA, sercet ehk! ((: .. haha!! whee~! Well, everyone who i told u dat sth. yeahh.. ya noe ryte? SECRET!! (((: hahas! so, meeting Lene at 30th January, her birhtday!! whee~ goin buy ur pressie dat u wanted girl! hehe! And abt night, i chilled with JAB.. jyea! kekekk!!! And slept at 12.. while listenin to da song, One Girl To Love - Bobby Valentino. and u noe who u are girl.. (((:

Today

Today was so boring! Bt at least i submitted my Project DNT! whee~ and it was perfectly done by me, and its walao weyy nyce! XD impressed by myself!! Diz is my Design!

whee! nyce ryte? if not, FUCK OFF LAA SIAL! XD jokin jerr.. Well, wanna noe whutt? I like herr.. its nt her looks bt her heart dat i love.. and im not A PLAYBOY OR PLAYING TIMER taw!! hehe.. (((: SHH! u noe who u are.. haha!! okay2.. Well, DRAG NK MAMPUS LAA today.. and last Period Was CME.. haha! Fun! till someone Spoilt da shit! haha! kekekk laa deyy! Ckp org pandang rendah pader NT PERR? aku NA tapi pernah peh sia aku ckp korang otak bengap? tk pakai otak? aku ader pehh sia kutuk korang? KAU KUTUK AKU LAGI ADER SIA DLM KELAS! AKU SABAR JERR TAW. PUKIMAK! tkder kejer peh sia korek juboh *GadaFi*. Prangai pehh! abeh tkleh amek peh? abeh kene keluarkan peh yng kau TECH? abehh kene blg cikgu peh? kene jadi emotianal sgt peh org ckp kau PRANGAI? PRANGAI JERR SAKR BKN CKP KAU BODOH! BKN CKP KAU TECH BODOH! pukimakk laa sial! abehh nk ckp2 ngn *GadaFi* asl sia? BERUBAH LAA SIKIT! org nk belajar dlm kelas susah bler kau buat bising. PIKIR ORG TK MARAH PEH? ORH SABAR JERR LAA SIAL! SROH AKU TUKAR KONON! TK TGK DIRI KT CERMIN! BUAT KLAKAR PER? ABEH TDI KT PONDOK ASL SENYAP SIA BLER BDK EXPRESS TRON? TAKOT PEH NK CKP KTER ADER PANDANG RENDAH PEH? TAKOT PEHH SIAL? ABEH SAKK *GadaFi* ADER CKP BLAKANG PSL KORANG? TKDER MASERR LAA EK, AKU NGN BDK2 LAEN MALAS LAA NK CKP BUROK PSL ORG, TKDER MASERR LA SIALAN! AKU LEHH KETAWER LAA SIA! HAHAHA!! KEKEK SAKR! Fatal! Naz! $5 bsok utk rokok underground! maner aku tadi? OWHH, KIMAKK LAA SIALAN! NK CKP NGN AKU GITU PEH? AKU TANYER JWB UHH, ABEHH NK CKP "STAB TKDER JEKK", TUU APER KAU PIKIR, PANDAI! NASEB BAEK MICHEAL TOH TADI ADER SAKR, AKU NYER TANGAN NK TAROK KT MUKER KAU JERR. NASEB AKU ADER PIKIR AKU NK KAU HIDOP, HAHA! TKLAA, NASEB AKU PIKIR AKU TKNK CALAHKAN MUKER KAU NGN AKU TKNK BUAT KEJER BODOH PSL ORG TERLALU EMOTIONAL.. funny laa sia! Theater comedy pon kalah! haha!! nk ckp bender yng tk jadi.. aper2 laa ek, aslkn kau bahagia sua, kau sentuh *GadaFi*, kau sroh org rembat dyer, aku carikk kau dulu laa sia, kau mati pon aku tk kesah. PUKIMAKK!~ nk mintak paisehh jgn kt aku, mintak paisehh kt satu 2A class nyer budak ACAD! haah!! kekek! well, after dat shit, went to da Mall with Johan, Julie, Faiz, Syarmilla ane me laa.. haha! fun lahhs.. denn went to 145 to meet up da 3T's! whee~ denn out we go to fetch Wirda And Haziqah after their class at 3.. went to da Mall. and denn abt some mins later, we went off to home.. Took 28 with Wirda, Haziqah && IZZ.. and Wirda is damn crazy coz she putted da Chocalate Fudge on someone's Shirt! walao weyy!! XD Siow sia!! haha!!

Denn out of bus 28, went home, changed, and meet someone at dat some place fo awhile.. ~whee, anotha huggie! thankiez!! well, i wrote too long i think.. so uhh.. till tomorrow ayte! Enjoy reading and add tag! I love herr laa! hehehe!! (((:

~Shaze~

with love.. Muakz!!

Im trynna act..

2007-01-22T04:38:00.000-08:00

Heyy there!! How ya'll doin? Hope cha fine ayte.. Well, whutt happened today? hah! Me and Gada was Hyper!! XD

Mother Tounge period was loike err, MISS NURUL TK DATANGG!! HAHA!!

me and gada stared at da relief teacher! haha! Hawt laa ek. Im nt dirty Minded laa ek..

Hariz ask me to go to his table coz he can see da outer shape of Miss Tan's TETEK! XD

Mepek lahhs. so denn, We went fo SCIENCE!! WOO!!

I loike!! Mr Lai laa!! Favourite laa.. We do experiments and it was damn exciting!! woo!! I just love today! XD wahh.. COOLNESS! hahas! tak laa.. ishk! stoink!~ Well, after dat was err, i went to toilet to berak!! XD LITERATURE CLASS!! haha! boring bleh tahan laa.. Da ACAD stream of 2A, we made a Paper Aligator, and *GadaFi*'s aligator was loike a BABI HUTAN!! haha!! kaki kecik nak mampus! haha! and Miss Yeo said dat my Limericks was fantastic! Maklumlah, aku kan RAPPER! XD and my aligator was walaoweyy!! XD, Thankz to Syazwani laa!! XD kekekk!! Denn Recess!!

I ate Mee Hong Kong! with alot of chillis, denn i ate burger denn i dont noe laa..haha! sat at da pondok wit *GadaFi*. listen to songs denn went for english lesson! haha! aku berak lagikK!! and i forget to tell ya'll. I berak today 3 times at skool! hahaha!! walao lahh seii! XD well, so many freaking miss calls and ol of em are *************.. secret laa horr.. ader laa.. nt my scandal, nt my girl, just a BESTIEE!! whee~ denn went to da toilet, to chat wit H** for awhile.. haha! kekek laa!! fun lahhs! haha! denn bla bla.. Goin to dinner on sat wit H**.. well, thankz laa! whee~ {SHE"S NOT MY GIRL AND IM NOT REALLY IN LOVE WITH HER((: } yo! wanna noe lil sth?6 Girls are asking for me Stead!! haha! famous xia, bt err, i rejected laa.. haizz.. If there's only.. nehmindd.. Loike DUHH! Who am i ryte? im just a stinking old jerk ryte? dont noe who to treat a girl.. XD walao laa seyy..

so where was i? owh yahh!! ENGLISH LESSON! Madam Sim Gerek laa! buat article! i loike! denn Music! OKlaa yerr.. after dat MATHS! Miss Felicia! whee! i passed da test! woo! gereklaa!! i loike laa.. denn after skool, tot dat Naz and Lemon was free to follow me and Is'sha to bugis! but they cant alaa.. sedihku! so went to Tm Mac too meet Is'sha! And i was walking with Rila sambil jalan sambil ckp2..haha! Kacao dyer tanning! haha! nyce colour babe! whee~! denn met Is'sha, kepo! tgk aku nyer handphone! XD.. haha! waited for fir at Macdonalds..and i saw Miss Marlia! Smiled at herr! she smiled at me too! ~whee!!!

denn saw Haziqah and Wirda! wirda!! thankz for da huggie cuzz! yeayy! syg kau bnyk2! whee! denn fir came! i wore his Pink Bag! happy laa, ASS in pink! woo!

Reached Bugis! and it was fun laa!! haha!! denn find Is'sha's clothes.. haha! farnie2! pusing saner, pusing sini, kepala pon tukar gasing mcm turburn! XD haha!! kekek!!~ so denn abt 4.30 went backk to tamp, fir and me only left.. sha went home.. so went to Xcraft, tot i wanted to pierce, denn tk jadi lahh.. haha! kekek! denn went to old chunky, bought foods, went to Small Mac inter, bought Chocalate milkshake!! whoo!! yeayy baybehh!!

denn after datt i went home.. denn called JAB.. lepak2.. denn i told Jab to stop a rumors dat dee asked to.. so bla bla.. chill, get some weed, chill bill, kill drill.. haha! gerekness laa! now at home, chatting! whee~ ayte.. gtg.. here some pics of today laa..

Im backk BITCH!

2007-01-19T22:31:00.000-08:00

I loved/?

The Only One i Trust most is *GadaFi*

Wads da up fuckers? First things First, FUCK OFF LAA PUKIMAK SPAMMERS, wanna tag for wad sia? talk to me face to face laa.. like DUHH! u aint dare ryte? ASsholes, can leave my taggie alone? PUKIMAK! dyer kene maki arh sial psl manusia MELAYU tk tahu tutup mulot, AND TO DAT LOVER, fuck off laa sialan? puki! nk tag psl blaze, aper kesah sak aku psl kau ngn dyer? pi mampus! kau nk email dyer jgn tanyer aku arh sialan! ingat aper? FREE peh? Electric nie aku bayar laa "POMPAN".. Now i dont care who u are, who da fcuk u come from, or wadever.. DIZ IS MY BLOG, MY LIFE, MY OWN, spoil it, ur dead okays? FUCK laa abt spammers.. This is da way i am, fuck it fuckers!!

Yesterday was fun, prefectly fun laa!! Tegor Miss Marlia! hahaha!! Denn bla bla, after skool went out wit Gadafi! Azraei! and Izz! haha!! Fun laa eks.. bought dat thingy, denn off to my crib, i changed denn went to bedok, Azraei's crib denn went to skool! PLayed Badminton with my BRO TILL DEATH, Gadafi!! i won!! haha!! Denn Met Faiz! Julie! Haziqah! Maliki! haha!! fun laa! gerek-ness, Faiz told me dat Miss Marlia told his class dat err, She heard from someone, I took her pic? APER JEK! maner ader.. gees. ((: hehe! btol laa.. i didnt took her pic taw, FAIZ TELL HER!! okays.. denn me and faiz, went out to buy Milo! haha! watch da NCC, NPCC and NCDCC. Talking abt NCDCC, i miss wirda laa!! alala!! XD Kiwakk~ malu sakr Miss Marlia told org yang i amek pic dyer.. aper seyh.. okay2.. denn ard 6+ went to fetch lil sista! I saw Connie!! hehe! she tegor and went home together.. kekek laa bodoh nie!~ haha! fun laa eyhs.. haiy0o.. whole day laa nk katerkan i was missing Shayana.. aww.. ((: Just went home, from Yishun uhh, kiwakk sia guys, how could u haf a friend told the asshole dat u are da one whos in fault nt dat asshole, how could laa kiwakk!! Farhan? how could cha? haha! naseb after all dat settle, we beat him up, i just watched and laugh.. haha!! now, ur apology aint accepted until Joe's accepted.. ASSHOLES..

Denn last night went to Ibnu Abbas, JOHAN WAS THERE!! haha!! Karim was THERE!! ABG WANDO WAS THERE!! WOOO~ daa uhh.. malas uhh nk update, currently otf laa ek.. k bye!

~Shaze~

With love..

Da Two Bros who i can ONLY TRUST! BEst laa diorang!

Saya sayang Faiz!!
*GadaFi* && *Wirda!!(((:* Love em alots laa!!

Can u see us? See da boy in black sweater, hawt kn? ((:

AKU SAYANG BRO AKU!! EDDY!! ((:

By My Side..

2007-01-18T05:17:00.000-08:00

Haha!! im backk arseholes!! Love to ready my blog ehk? well, good den, if u dont like, GET OUT OF HERE, dat cross on ur top right hand corner will wait fo ya. Wadever!! Wanna noe whutt? I feel more happier after i change diz much! ~Whee!! haha!! seriuzly i do! i loike~ haha! bt nt so good uhh, Shazuandy have'nt Born Once Again yett.. so, If she thinks i changed, ill get backk to herr.. whutt happened today uh, well

Stupid laa my adq! gotta wear her pink bag to school lakk!! maut! bodoh! ishk~
I love today laa! kekek!! Maths was da best laa bodoh! Me and *GadaFi* fought coz of Miss Felicia! haha!! For Fun eyh! Loike err

Shaze : Miss Felicia aku nyer arh bodoh!
Gadafi : Aku nyer laa! aku da maen dyer peh smlm..
Shaze: Aku da break ngn dyer tuarie! XD
Gadafi: too bad uh, aku nyer arh bodoh!

Denn we do our maths questions, denn *GadaFi* was loike

Gadafi : Aku tgh imagine Felicia tgh wok aku sakr. Smlm aku mimpi aku maen ngn dyer.
Shaze : Kau imagine, kau mimpi, blom pernah peh! G mintak arH!
Gadafi: tknk uhh, malu, kiwakk! aku panchot kt muker dyer sakk mani aku!
Shaze: Makkau! Gian sakk kau! giler!
Gadafi: i loike!~
Shaze: tkper laa. Kau tahu tk Cikgu Baru? Miss Marlia ek? Yng mlayu, hot giler tuu?
Gadafi: arh2 asl?
Shaze: aku da add dyer kt FRIENDSTER!! MSN PON!! haha!! nnti dyer lehh tolong aku dlm pelajaran.
Gadafi: Pelajaran aper tuu? Maen ker boy?
Shaze: Otak kau, hawt ek. Tpi tk uhh, Shayana lagi hawt uhh babe.
Gadafi: Felicia lagi hawt bodoh!
Shaze: aku rindu Shayana uhh..
Gadafi: Jgn nk tukar subject arh! Felicia lagi hawt
Shaze: pader kau laa.. Felicia hawt tpi Shayana hawter.
Gadafi: tknk buat pakai peh Miss Marlia?
Shaze: pi mampus! hehe *grindin*

Me and *GadaFi* was siow laa! haha! Ho Su Lei! a new friend uhh. Denn another guy laa from 1t2. dont noe laa ek. IM FAMOUS LAA *GadaFi*.. He's jealous! haha!! Denn on maths lesson, 2A gotta get down to da foyer coz make noise.

Gadafi: tgk uhh semuer org, buat mataer aku marah.. ugh!
Shaze: uhh yerlaa ek, tk dapat sakk kau!! XD

kekek laa bestie aku nie! Syg dyer! Gada thankz for blanjer me Mee Rebus ek! XD.. after skool, tot of lepaking with Wirdaaa~~ bt she must go to da Hospital uhh.. haiyo0! nehmind ek. Take care laa horr.. So, went jalan2 with da Weirdos/Gila's.. Gerek!! I love Faiz laa!! haha!! i love to hug Faiz!! aww!! IM NT A GAY LAA BODOH! denn went to Century Square, waited for someone. Denn dat Bodoh tk jadi plak! Hilang aku nyer reputation! And on the way there, i saw Shayana and her friend. ok. Denn bla bla, went home, changed for awhile, denn met Hanisah And Zulaikha! ((: .. kekek uhh. da 1t2 girls "Hi kak Zulaikhaaa!" pekat sakk Khaaa dyer.. XD! denn lepak wit em for awhile. Denn went to school. Otw to school, chatted wit my old CPA teacher.. She Congrulate me for goin to ACAD! Thankz CHER! Denn saw hadi, azraei and !!FIRDAUS!! Firdaus!! haha!! gerek uhh Zahar tuu!! XD
Denn met up wit Shayana and i dont noe whu ek. bla bla. denn went to Takraw! Gerek-ness!! haha!! Faiz, Julie, and i dont noe whu shouted my name! Im famous laa nk katerkan! haha!!
WADEVER! KILL THEM, cn? haha!! im outta control mayn! im hyper. eyh someone called uhh.. important nyer call. bsk i update laa babes.. bye love ya'll!!

~Shaze~
with love.. ((:

Get Low Biatch!

2007-01-16T04:42:00.000-08:00

yeahh! God Damn! Feels like a Long time dosent it? U missed me? I didnt miss ya'll pussies! Haha! wanna noe whutt? Im influenced by da Re-Up Album. Im nt anymore da one who wanna be da person who into da trouble wen im not!! Now, Im your PubLic Enemy Guys! Oww. ya make me mad, i got no time for asking, "why?", im gon straight forward and beat da heck outta u! But only for someone uhh i cant do dat, "Shayana" ((:

Hahaha!! Wanna noe whutt? im damn into some kind of trouble. no one noes rite? COZ WHO DA HECK CARES WAD IM INTO RYTE? im all alone now, surviving like HELL now. Who da heck can i ask for help? Parents? Family? nahh! Im on my own now! My Trouble, my problem, gotta deal wit it on my own.. IM NEVER SCARED OF DEATH, try to kill me, ill kill ya ferst. Owh, damn, Afta Joe's gone, i think dat err, IM BACKKK!! but nahh, im not.. Im so into Stressness, Angermanagment.. I got no one to talk to now, Joe's gone, no homies to talk to. Shayana? err, i wanna try call but, my phne ppd low laa.. =(

Owhh Mannn!! Cry Now! Cry NOW!! CRY NOW!! hahaha!! im damn.. Guys, no more EMO WAN, NO MORE!!! im just changing. Da things dat i've kept inside diz while, is all out. wanna noe wad's all in me now?

I HATE THOSE PEEPS IN EU AND YIS!! EYH GUYS, WHY SCARED TO BEAT ME UP ON SUNDAY WEN IM WITH AUNT JESSIE? YA SCARED? COWARDS! KILL ME OR DO ANYTHING TO ME, I DARE U, I DARE U, I SAID, I DARE U!
NOW, MY PROBS ARE NOT GOING TO KEPT ON MY ASSHOLE, I SETTLE IT, I MAKE IT QUICK, EVERY SINGLE THING DAT MAKES ME GO DAMN OHH FRIDGE MAD! IS GOING DOWN RYTE NOW, NO MORE SADNESS IN ME NOW, ONLY ANGER & HAPPYNESS.

DO U PEOPLE EVEN NOE HW SAD I WAS WEN JOE DIED? I EVEN TRIED TO KILL MYSELF, BT I DONT WANT COZ WADDHE HECK IS USE FOR KILLING MYSELF? I NOE IM VALUEBLE, IMPORTANT, AND SPECIAL, IF U PEOPLE DONT THINK IM DAT WAY, DATZ UR OWN FREAKING PROB!!

NO APOLOGY?!?! WAD DA HECK IS DAT FARHAN? U DONT APOLOGISE JOE COZ JUST A SHIT? HE'S DEAD BOY! HE'S DAMN DEAD! WAD DA HECK IS WRONG WITH CHA'? WE'RE HOMIES! WE'RE DAMN TIGHT BOY! AND U GON DO DIZ? WELL, RYTE NOW, UR IN DA "MOTHERFUCKERS" LIST!! UR DEAD WEN I SEE U IN DA STREETS!!

i dont care abt anything but only abt my life with people who are important. No more da sad me, no more !! Its da RE-UP. IM BACCKK. ya dont noe hw much ryte i've changed? huh? PEOPLE!! u dont noe hw much ryte i've changed? U dont heck noe hw much i've changed ryte? Well, im tired! im tired of waitin "owh, da berubah? bagos2", its done. Well, hate me or love me its ur damn problem. If i say im backk, dat means im backk with more LOVE FOR PEOPLE, MORE HAPPINESS TO MAKE YA'LL, IM BACKK WITH MORE AND MORE G THANG.. Shady Productions makes me go backk da real me! Im sorry. damn. My life is so in da drain if im like diz!! aww.. too badd!!

Okay, mayb im silly, bt to me, i think im not, i think diz is my greatest choice. Im done being da innocent one whoz always being being victimised! Dammit people! im done being diz! I hate being like diz people! wad da heck i did wrong to u and im being like diz? haha! well, if u do dat to me, im gon really make u err, suffer for ur whole life if u still with me. GET IT? thankz! so dont make trouble ayte? Thank you. ((:

And thankz to Shayana, she wanted me to update. So i've updated. Ok! Im done! OFF!! Leave a tag ayte abt my change? thankz! ((:

Appreciated it alotz..

R.I.P ~> Joey Hilmer.

~Shaze~
with love..

IM DONE BEING DA ONE!! GET IT? ((:

Rest In Peace.

2007-01-14T03:30:00.000-08:00

Joey Hilmer's Death

13 January 2007, da day of Joe's Sacrificed. He was hit by a car. His neck broke and a few hours later, he died. His mom called me. "Wan, Joe just passed away." i suddenly drop da fone and cried. I was damn stressed about diz. I scold dear Shayana, Sofiah, Huda, Khai and many other people.. damn.. suddenly my life was loike in da drain. Denn, Lene called me, asked wad da hell was wrong with me, i told her i was damn in some stresses more to more Joe passed away. Haizz..

My Bestest MotherFANG! was lost. He taught me so much. He even changed my life. He was the one who really helped me out wen i was in danger loike PEOPLE WHO REALLY WANNA KICK MY ASS. Damn, im so loike CRYING now. Sis Almeida (Joe's Lil Sista), was so sweet. She hugged me and share me about her past on his Bro. I felt damn bad for her. She's gon be my little god sis. I promise u dat i will forever protect u no matter wad okays? Diz is a promise dat i will never ever break, ur bro asked me to be there for u wen he passed away. Sis, just relax kays?

Sis Almeida told me, "Brother, can u share me about ur memorable life on 2006?"

I told her dat, " I went alot of new obstacles with ur bro. We had so much fun. Doing karaoke's, i remembered da most unforgetable thing of my life, He gave me a wonderful gift and i will never throw away dat gift, he gave me friendship for 5 years. And other than dat, i met a wonderful girl but denn we broked up, but i will forever love her to matter wad. I lost many friends on 2006 bcoz i dont wanna be loike last time. U remembered the old me ryte?"

Sis Almeida: "Yes, certainly i do, da most hatred person in my whole entire life is the old u my Brother. U was a Flirter, u was a real backstabber, u hate people, u only think of oneself, u make people being so miserable and pathetic. Let's dont rewind back the old u ryte?

Me: "Okays denn my dear sister. But a few months in 2006, ur brother changed me. Datz wen me and him are close backk together. He changed me. He taught me to become a real gentleman, he taught me to forget da PLAYA's life and just to get One Girl To Love. He changed my whole entire bad side. I stopped da drinks, i stop being an asshole, i just go on with his flow. Haizz.. If only he's here backk. His words dat he told me was : Always look forward to life, never look backk. Dont even think about other when u dont even think about urself.

He was da advicer of my life. He was dhe only one to help me. Da dance steps, da ballet lessons, everything is empty now without him. Da turn table, i remembered, i sratch alot till da Cds was spoilt.. Remember da song, Lover's And Friends? We sang together at 27 March 2006. Denn all of our Pfam came. And remembered dat i was loike whoa! wenn da fellas came? haha! i was damn embarressed coz my voice back denn was loike Sengau.

Sis Almeida: "haha! bro, dat was something! and do u remembered da 3 pizzas u ate? denn u vomitted on Joe's shirt denn he vomitted at da cup? Denn Hilmi drank it? dat was damn funny! haha!!"

haizz.. dat conversation was damn memorable.. I got something something to tell to my dear Joe.

Joe, rest in peace my mayn. ill meet u someday. And all da wishes u told me, ill fufil it. ill try my very best! And on diz day, i will never ever treat any girl badly. And all da thruth, secrets, lies, backstabbed on otha peepz, is safe with me forever. Im praying for u no matter u aint an islam, i just wanna thank u for all da time we had fun together. We never argue abt anything, im so thankful to get a friend like u. I can't stand it, i lost a wonderful friend. If i ever did anything dat make u mad, sad or regret, im sorry. From da bottom of my heart friend, ull there in me. Da greatest friend of my life. And datz a full stop.

Joey Hilmer.

{1987-2007}

a Greatest Friend Of All..

~Shaze~

May God Bless Him afta all this time.. ((:

Outta My System.. :(

2007-01-13T02:19:00.000-08:00

Well, on 8/01/07, we broke up.. haizz.. i cried laa ek, aper2 laa.. ill change just to get u backk kays? if we get backk together, ill try to promise dat i will give my best to not make u mad or sad anymore.. ayte? but its only turst dat i want.. ((: haizz. people asked me to move on, i want to but i cant, i loved her so much laa!! :((

So, afta da broke up, i dont noe how so many peole noes dat i broke up and single.. Sofiah bodoh laa ko! yani sampai nk aku lakk! babi! i hate yani laa kays? fucker!! hahaha!! haiyoo.. 35 msges saying dat, Hi, lehh knl2? in just 5 days sia denn loike diz.. sorry girls, i noe im hawt, but i want her backk laa.. can? can? haiyooooo!! =(

Well, i got a private phone call just now, saying dat diz girl saw me and she wanna be with me, asked her name, she didnt tell me, age was 15, walaoweyy~.. denn she asked me for an intro, i said, im att, coz i dont wann any gurls uhh now, well, i just want her backk.. (Its loike da 3 paragraphs, i said i want her backk, can? XD)

To my besties! thankz ya'll for cheering me up ayte! I love faiz laa!! he makes me entertain him! hahaha! am i da funniest guy in skool? huh? ahahhahahaa!! well, i dreamt ytd, abt someone.. diz is our conversation..

Me: ur single?

Ciara: yes..

Me: wad happened to Bow Wow?

Ciara: Broke up.. den are u single?
Me: kinda, but cant forget herr uh, can u be her?

Ciara: i can, but will u never leave me?

Me: ill try, but i want da real her can?

Ciara: denn me?

Me: i just be with ur friend,

denn woke up, AKU MCM PAHAM SIA!!! hahahahaha!!

well, i gotta lot of problems afta da break up, haizz.. ya noe ryte people wad im into ryte now.. eyh2, Hanging out with da Wierdos was so funn!! hehehe!! ahaha!! hohoho!! everywhere i go now, girls will smile at me, I NOE IM HAWT LAA KANN?? haha! im nort flirting laa eks.. can i be loike last time? da most happiest kid but with alotta Bad Stuffs goin on.. haiyoo..

i really tried my best to let go of her, bt cant laa, haiyoo!! haha!! Currently listenin to da song, Promise by Ciara, so sad ek dyer break ngn BOW WOW!! BOW! asl sakk kau! aku da blg kau, kalau nk break, blg aku dulu, jgn arh patch ngn dyer baleq, kesian taw dyer nk kau baleq, at least dyer nk kau, aku.. nehmind laa bow, aper2 kau call aku arh.. X)

Julianna, Faiz, Haziqah, Nazhurah, Azura, Is'sha, Atika Lemon, Jab, Blaze, Kak Izz, Wirda, Gadafi, Syaiful, Bhangala bwh blok, Rila, Ayem and all da other people, Thankz for cheering me up, giving advices, making me smile, and everything! on da day dat i was sad.. thankz ya'll! Ya'll people are special in my heart! Besties!! ~wheee!! ((:

I got something to say to Shayana :for da last 2 months, its da most special time of my life, i wont forget everything. If only i can turn backk da time, make it all da way u want, and i just be ur servent.. i felt loike a jerk to u, i noe i suck.. i really dont wanna loose u, bt we ended up diz way, i think its done. But if there still chances to get u backk, ill try my best, from da bottom of my heart, I LOVE U, and i will forever do, no matter whoever wanna take ur place in my love life.. In my mind, i will only imagine ur face, and no one else can replace.. u've been da greatest and special girl i had.. and i've been da worst jerk & an asshole to u.. Im so sorry for all of da things i did to u, i wanna move on, but i really cant, if i can, i wanna move on with u, understand me? get me? 35 ex, and ur da last, da most loving girl i had, u can call me anything u want, u can kill me, u can say anything to me, u can hurt my life but i will alwayz love u no matter wad.. im in sadness while ryting diz to u, i hope u noe wad im feeling, if anything dat makes u happy, ill sacrifice, i think ur happy wen we broke up, coz i wont be there to ruin ur beautiful life. U might think im happy now, bt im not, and sorry if i dont reply or answer ur calls on da next few days, i dont wanna ruin ur lyfe anymore, i noe u cant take it, i just wanna hear u happy, not being sad wen im around. So, if ur owready hate me, its okay, i still love u and hope u have a better life, if u still love me, reply on my tagboard or smthin, da day we broke up, i almost fainted b4 goin to school. Thank god my mum saw me before i cut my neck. i can die for u, u might think im avoiding u before da breakup, im really not okays.. and ryte now, i will avoid u coz i dont wanna ruin ur lyfe anymore, i hurt u enough, and u said i cheat u, so, now, its dhe end? well, i dont noe, time will tell.. there's no other women i loved so much otha denn u, i never cried in a relationship but only u i cried for, i told u before, i loved u loike i love myself. I dont wanna see ur cry anymore, be mad anymore, i've sacrifice so much, and its ended diz way, i dont care, all i want is to see u happy kays girl? Listen to da song Turn The Page by Bobby Valentino so u can imagine dat im beside u, and plus, i was thinking abt u da 5 days, i almost hit a car wen walking home. Nehmind if i die, i sometimes even cant get my maths answer rite coz think of u too much. u want me to go to express ryte? ill try my best to fufil cha wish. I've changed alot afta i met u, i stopped smoking, i stopped drinking, i didnt flirt, didnt went to da clubs nomore, didnt hang out wit my old friends at eunos or yishun, i didnt contacted my ex, wad more do u want me to change? just tell me? im just writing wads on my mind. im listening to da songs i sent to u, just to reminise.. if only u noe wads on my mind. So, if ur stressed now abt me, HATE ME! I SAID HATE ME! DONT EVEN BOTHER ABT ME! okays? i noe u'll find MUCH BETTER guys denn me, ayte? im just acting dat im happy, but within my heart, im not.. thankz fo all those times we shared, we laughed, we cry, secrets, all ur secrets are safe with me. okay denn, im done, I love u.. ((:

~Shaze~

with love..

Ps: Shayana, Let me Hold u forever.. ((:. <<

Ya noe who backk..

2007-01-03T02:57:00.000-08:00

Everybody put cha' Hands up! Da letter S is backk fo da Re-up!

3/1/2007.. Ferst Day Of School!

New Bag, New Uniform, New Shoes..

Ballin to School wit a cab, with ma mayn Jab..

Let's say im in school abt 7.15

Fast and Faster as a killing Machine

Ma rhymes killin ya, ya in da ocean gon sink.

Gold Hair, Long Hair

Teacher Called me out, Wad a Bad Hair Day!

Walk my way, to da assembly ground and Hey!

Rila was beside me..

Talk and Talk, wtf, been caught still can act funny..

Me and da rest people went to Fathul call mayn

Gotta call my parents mayn.

Im damn bored mayn.

Hot, i need a fan.

Went to talk to Fathul

and Kak Izzy said im cute in uniform

Im cute, fo my girl, im da bomb!

went to class backk. new class was not bad.

Missin my lady so badly.

Lil Emcee missin his girliee..

Love's so lovely..

Recess came, we outta play games!

Finally met Wirda! Miss my bestie lerr!

Wawa too! ala! everyone da same.

All my way, pimpin, swingin, rappin, shapin, talking..

saw any plastic's, i clunch my fist

who da who made diz?

Studying is my main objective to school

even im cool, i need education wen i grew up older..
Help my mum and my father..

well, suddenly i rap this thing out..

ya noe wad imma about..

Well, b4 anythang, let me tell ya'll fucking HATERS dat

IM STILL HERE AND FOREVER STAND WITH MY 2 FEET!

Ya dealin wit da kid who gon put u six feet deep

Ya noe my pedigree

ya dealing wit da illest most fiercest kid, that's me.

Went mac wit Jab

eat da macspicy and outta we go home fo a daily resty..

Mum and dad went to JB..

Im alone later with my lil sissy..

Well, im gon stop here coz im now lazy.. gotta post at Shazuandy's blog! Holla!

~Shaze~

with love.. <3

It Was A Blast!! =))

2006-12-24T03:37:00.000-08:00

Yesterday! Nazhurah's Partyyyy wass a blast!! yeay2!! alaa.. but darl Shayana could'nt make it.. alaaa.. sedih2.. Talked to sayang till ard 5++.. asked her to take a nap coz she was sick ytd..so, ewnt out abt 6++..went to TopMan and bought dat blue shirt.. nyce ryte?? but sadly, wen i on a fire, my shirt had a hole =(.. it cost me $20!! walao laa sialan jubez! haha!! farnie laa.. denn terbakar, troz muker i slumber.. walao leyy.. malu leyy kt tgh2 TM! haha!! okay2.. so went to da interchange to wait fo Faiz and Izzy! i was queuing fo a milkshake at Macdonalds.. denn suddenly Faiz came up to me wit a suprise! haha!!denn izzy called Faiz i tink, asked where is he, haha!! pehh bengap, we were just infront of herr.. kwa3.. okay2..

Went to da bus stop infront of Faiz's house.. woo! we took bus 3.. denn we stopped at Downtown East! yeahh!! we sesat leyy bcoz of Azuandy's fault.. hahah!! denn we reached Coasta Sands Resort.. kambing! must pay $1!! denn i tried to put da freaking coin into where da coin shld put laa.. tried a few times denn dhe assistant helped me, finally cann.. Denn Faiz only tried once, denn walao! Boleh sia!! hw bengap am i? kuali pinggan btol! and denn we 3 jahanam's were finding Nazhurah's chalet! Nihh arh Faiz nyer pasal, i da ckp saner, degil! rambut mangkuk btolz!! haha!! denn woo! got diz kid i, panggil dyer Godzilla laa..played wit da gun spray.. Faiz kene jadi Mangsa! haha!! Denn Azura and Atika came! jyea jyea jyae.. I ate 4 bontot && kepak ayam's.. hahaha!! its not dat im hungry or wad, im just lapar jerr.. plus its not tasty, it was SOOPERRR SEDAP DELICIUSSS.. haha!!

denn all of us went to da Beach! okay laa.. fun laa.. same time thinking abt my syg.. if she's well or nort.. haiyoooo.. =((.. soo sedih leyy she's sickk.. denn used Izzy's handphone to msg my syg.. denn she called me.. okay2.. talked to herr.. denn she was loike mad at me.. okay2.. wadever.. wad done is done.. ayte? denn went backk to chalet.. nihh Izzy's nyer pasal uhh kter salah jalan.. woihhhiiiioooo!! haha!! denn we met up wit hadi and yusof, terperanjat bapak aku nyer anak number 2 tuu nampak eddy.. mangkuk pinggan kuali!! haiyooo.. haha!! didnt said a freaking word to em'.. wadever laa ek.. so went to pasir ris inter, wif Atika And Azura.. Izzy and Faiz owready went off.. Azura And Atika!! tk abez2 korang kacao aku afro!! baskett sia!! mangkuk!! hahaha!! daa laa takot lipas! denn, we went to Mac, bought em some foods.. denn went to sunplaza to eat.. denn went off..

went home.. Along was loike mad at me.. denn we off to fetch my sis at somewhere in bedok? i ono wad restaurant.. haha!! Cik mad were at my home! da mee semuer da basi leyy.. XD.. haha!!

kekek!! so fetch my adq, went home and went to my bed, listenin' to songs denn suddenly2, it all thang happened.. ohh shoott!! forget to tell ya'll denn i talked to someone who were dead, i noe dat person.. she said dat, " dont be mad bcoz u dont how she feels.." denn while i was listenin to songs, i cried and cried and cried.. till last morning.. haizz.. my eye was lebam seyh.. betapa sedih i! ='(.. haizz.. bodo laa aku.. haha!! denn called up dear.. talked to herr..denn we are okay backk..

and today, went to skola ugamer, thought after dat going to da docter, bt nahh, my grandfather was sick uhh.. kasihan2.. =(.. haizz.. so went ard tamp.. lepak2 wit da FreakZ! haha!! kekek laa korang kacao psl aku nyer boxer.. BLUEKZ!! aku tahu boxer aku lebih cantik dari korang! XD.. okayy laa.. im done! holla!! love ya'll!!

~Shaze~

with love..

Mac 10's coming ur way!! Im also in dat album! jyea!! wooo! haha!! dont forget to get a copy of it kayy!! its only $10 mayn!! be ready for da moneyy!! hear it! buy the original copy nort da fake one ayte!! holla! peace.. Mac 10 was proudly presented by DynamiC Records / Maccardy..

~DynamiC Records~

Peace!!

They Shook..

2006-12-18T02:38:00.001-08:00

Well, its been abt a few days huh i didnt update?? well, kinda lazy to do so.. well well well.. ya noe wad? i got a feeling of something.. no one noes.. haha!! and i will never ever gon tell anyone abt diz feeling.. coz this is to fuck to tell ya'll huh?? well, wadever!! I owready lost 6 friends!! fuck em!! memang aku besarkan mataer dari korang, korang dah lah buat kecoh dgn bender tk berfaedah!! kimakk arh!! diz "friends" of myne, is a friend i've been with dem wen i were at YISHUN.. well, wad so ever?? have ever think im mad? do ya'll ever felt wad i feel? do u? if u act like u felt it, well, FUCK U!!! NO ONE UNDERSTANDS MY FUCKING FREAKING LYFE!! UNDERSTAND?? wadever uhh.. hmm, Eddy, called him to ask my boxshorts backk, haha.. i asked him backk in da rude way.. hahahahaha!!! Blaze campur ngn eddy? alaa... bagus laa tuu.. amin.. ok2.. aper2 lahh ek.. all i noe is uhh.. i just made enemiez..

THIS ARE THA LIST OF PEOPLE I HATE!!

*EDDY (aiming to become enemy once more)
*Khaizal
*Fadhlir
*Dzihir
*Fairuz
*Haikal Harun
*Hadi Fauzan
*Taufiq Hamzah

wow!!! i love diz.. ckp aku besarkan nonok kan? pi mampos lahh ek.. taught today is a pleasent day for a goodbye coz tomorro im going to PORT DICKSON!!!!! yeahhh!!! dont wanna go there bt i've been forced to!!! well, WHATEVER!! People who are or wanna be my friends, dont even ask me to do wad u want without telling me CAN?? Dont even fucking force me to do shit.. okayy? if u do, Denn GET DA FUCK OUT OF MY FUCKING SIGHT!! hahahhaa!! vulgarities too much, well, sorry, i gotta fuck diz shit coz i cant stand it no mo.. DIZ IZ MY LYFE, I GET WAD I WANT, I DO WAD I WANT, FRIENDS DONT CONTROL ME, IF YA DO, FUCK U!!! well, its a straight forward post.. hahahaha.. Try to catch me being dirty.. hahahhaa!! RIDIN DIRTY EYHS? HAHA!! i swear to god i wont regret diz.. im never gon regret diz.. well, im being selfish now, im being rude.. there's still something i cant tell, its only inside my heart.. its been torn apart wen heard of dat """""", i wont tell my girl, my friends or anyone, wen its time to tell, ill tell.. dont be mad kays.. i only love da people who loves me.. if dont denn, fuck out of my life.. my "GANSTERS HOMIES", fuck off laa wankstas.. hahahaha!! ill beat da shit out of u next time.. so uhh..

holla anytime at me, tomorro im outta here!! miss ya guys, especially my darl!! alaaa!! gosh, im breaking down.. haizz.. byebye!! love ya'll!!

PS: SYG!! JGN GATAL2 taw wen im away, XD.. take care! LOVE YA DA MUCH DEN MORE, FAMOUS DEN AMOS!! XD

~Shaze~
with love..

=))

2006-12-14T07:03:00.000-08:00

Okay.. maut..kener buat bender nie..malas taw.. XD.. kene tag from SHAYANA

Answer all the Question below.
Pass this to 5 people u know.

[1] Favourite Colour? Green && Yellow =)
[2] Fantasy Or Reality? i rather, BOTH!
[3] Last Outting? Golden Pine (GP)
[4] Last Person you kissed? Mummy! =)
[5] Latest time you went to bed? 6 pm..
[6] Favourite Band(s)? too many to list laa bodo! im a music listener kan? XD
[7] Attached Or Single? Attached laa!!
[8] First love? Yanie.. she's a bitch! =X
[9] Favourite day of the week? Saturday! =)
[10] Favourite number? #1
[11] Favourite month of the year? September (=
[12] First enemy? Saifuddin! Still F8ck u!!
[13] Do u smoke? trynna stop, bt still uhh..
[14] Hated day of the week? Tuesday..
[15] Last house you ever slept? Farid's house.. have lotssa fun dere!
[16] First Movie? Power Rangers Mighty Morphin!! =) still love it!!
[17] Last Movie you watched? Flushed Away..
[18] Most Hated subject? Malay
[19] Last Mall you went to? White sands..
[20] Current time? 11.25..

5 most luckies people!

*Julianna
*Pooja
*Namirah (= =)
*Haziqah
*KakIzyan

~Shaze~
with love..

One Girl to love..

2006-12-13T02:56:00.001-08:00

"One Girl To Love"

[Verse 1:]

All my fellas please listen up to meI sincerely say these words

What goes around, comes back around

I hope you feel me, cuz i'm not hating no

If you keep doing these girls wrong

Somebody's gonna do us wrongIt's reality, i need you here with meIf we keep breaking these girls hearts

Somebody's gonna break our heartsIt's reality, now I know what i need

[Chorus:]

Is one girl to love

Give her all of meOne girl to love

Give her everything she needs yeah

[Verse 2:]

It's time for me to hang up my cleets

Cuz my playing games are over

And I need the right one here with me

My friends don't understand whyLately I don't hang out all night

Someday they'll feel me

But I'm not hating noIf you keep doing these girls wrong

Somebody's gonna do us wrong

It's reality, it's reality

Need you here with meIf we keep breaking these girls hearts

Somebody's gonna break our heartsIt's reality, now I know what i need

[Chorus]

[Break:]

Only if I had a girl like you

So awesome and secureSearching for perfection would be true

Words cannot describe the feelingI pray to god that I meet you some day

I'll be patient

[Chorus 4x]

Dat Lyrics was dedicated to my fellas.. and understand it..

byebye!

love u all! MUAKZ!!

~Shaze~

with love..

FUCK MAT REPS!!

2006-12-12T04:05:00.000-08:00

U fuck wit my people, i fuck u up.. who da fuck are u dealing with? do u even noe who da fuck am i? Said ya wanna bring down 3 peepz? i dont even give a freaking fucking shit!! so bitch? wads da fuck? ur dealing with da fucker in my family.. ur dead man.. no one dares to talk fucking shit about my family..if ya wanna talk shit, talk shit abt me, not my family or even people who i love.. wad da fuck is with u?? ya fucking wit A Z U A N D Y.. no one wish to dare.. im da most furious one.. ya wanna fight wit me? im on.. without weapon.. ya can bring any fucking shit ya want.. all i want from u is, A LESSON.. i wanna teach u to shut ur fucking freaking mouth! i hate diz! no one talk shit abt my family, no one! i said no one! if ya'll talk shit abt my fam, i swear to god, ur gon be taught a lesson from me.. I SWEAR, ya'll better watch ya mouth, i dont care who da fuck u are, whether u are da biggest fucking mat rep in singapore or wadever.. NIWAES!! FUCK DA HELL OF MAT REPS!! YA BOYS WANNA TRY ME? C'MON!! I AINT SCARED ABT DEATH NO MORE BITCH!! DAMN FREAKING MALAYS!! IS DIZ WAD U CALLED ISLAM? IS U STUPID?? ARE U?!?!!?! dont think im just 13 i aint dangerous.. da people who noes me well, noes dat i am da most dangerous fucker in my place..ya came into my hood, thinking ur big, haha!!! UR GON BE GETTING IT FROM ME.. mats!! i aint giving any more fucking chances.. its all on ya fucker, diz mothafucker say shit abt my fam, all of u are in.. only da people who i noe, are my fucking freaking "mat rep" brothers, are fine with me.. others, dont even think abt being friends with me.. as ya mothafuckers said, One for all, All for one.. im freaking gon diss ya'll.. Wad da fuck? Airport? a gang name is an airport? wad da fuck? a watch brand, Omega is also a gang? haha!! eyh cowards, ya saw da cops denn ya gon be running like hell.. wad da fuck sia?? gangster eyh?? hahah!! i can laugh till i die fuckers! said ur a gangsta, but u need to stop fronting, u said ur a wanksta, and u need to stop running.. IM STILL HERE HATERS!!! WADCHA GON DO ABT IT?? KILL ME? U DONT DARE, IF YA DARE, U GOT CAUGHT, U BE CRYING ON UR KNEES FOR MY FORGIVENESS.. ALL I WANT NOW IS TO SEE U SUFFER AFTA ALL THOSE FUCKING WORDS!! BULLSHIT BITCH!! I DONT CARE WHO U ARE, WHO ARE U TO ME, WAD ARE U THINKING HUH?? YA WANNA DIE?? I WANNA FIND DIZ FUCKING ASSHOLE TILL MY LAST BREATH..IF I DONT FIND U, LET GOD WHIP YA ASS!! PEOPLE!! IM SORRY FOR THIS WORDS, BUT, WHO DA FUCK CAN KEEP DIZ SHIT INSIDE?? WADEVER!! I HOPE U DIE SLOW MOTHAFUCKER!! FUCK MAT REPS!! I DONT GIVE A SHIT WHO U ARE.. FUCK EM! FUCK YA'LL ASSHOLE'S.. FUCK IT BITCHES!! IM OUTTA HERE ASSHOLE'S!!

~Shaze~
in madness & rage..

FUCK YA'LL MOTHERFUCKERS!!!

Sadly, Im sadly to be sad..

2006-12-10T04:51:00.000-08:00

heyss, its shaze..sorry didnt update fo so long..haizz.. Tok Arshad has passed away on 7 December 2006.. ='( ..im sadly to be sad.. i didnt went to da hospital to see da last of him..haizz..

so da kenduri was held at my hse + Cik mads house.. haizz..

All da cuzz came.. Cryness on da house..denn went to Friday prayers.. woo!!

Abg amir n abg fai came, long time didnt heard from them, haha!! dpt naek abg fai nyer RXZ..haha..super gerekz!!

Abg hassan, atam, abg is n abg kamal prayed wit me..yeahh..haizz..

im missin my Shayana terribly..

yeap..denn went backk, sembahyang jenazah, denn went to angkat the arwah under da block..denn dhe ustadz bacer2..

Cik Mad was crying seyy..

haizz..denn afta dat, went to board the bus..played PSP, sempat lioaz..denn slept in da bus, denn wen reached da destination,

along woke me up.. syg alongku! denn i carried da arwah.. okay..da sand was uhh, so soft sia..denn wen da arwah was about to be in da tanam,

i was thinking to myself,

"Adakah aku buat semuanya ikutan Allah? Adakah aku membuat 5 rukun islam? Bila akan aku menjadi gini kalau aku tidak tahu bila aku akan mati?"

denn i was crying inside..haizz..people, if i cry, i dont cry outside, i cry inside..denn wen backk home..

waited for ustadz under my block..

Tok Mahmud came.. i saw her daughter, Haziqah, my childhood neighbour + best friend..haha..

missed dhe old days wen at simei..i was so young backk then..haha..anyways..ustadz came..d

enn bacerkn dhe kenduri uhh..so afta dat we ate..

denn dad had a conversation wit ustadz abt me..

why is dad alwaes looking at my bad side?

Even other people.. sometimes, i just wanna be invincible, i wanna run away from my old bad things..

people have no trust on me no more, okay, i admit, im a bad kid..okay. i noe..haizz..

denn at night, me n abg assan, went to buy da ciggs.. waited fo dat guy so long sia..haha..

denn went home..haizz..missin herr so much sia..

called her fo a while..

denn aleh2 i was soo stress..so took a cigg, went outside, smoked..

denn heard dat said somethang bad abt me..

not only a thing, many things..

i was loike so sad..

hw can my own dad meruahkan kejahatan anaknya kepada org lain? haiyoo..denn went home backk..kemas2..

tolong cik mad at his house..d

enn dad said "inilah anak ayah."

i was loike,"tadi ckp mepek2 psl aku, abey skrg nk buat baek.."

denn today..woke up at 1+,

denn straight away called my hunny..

missin her so much sia!! denn went to work at about 3..okayy..so do work..denn went home at 5.

denn went out again, ustadz called..

went to eddy's house coz kenduri..okayy..

went wit ustadz, cik ogy, ayem and Maccardy..

me n Maccardy wore dope shit..ahah..afta dat, gave flyers at IKEA.

.denn went to my carpark,

gave flyers..denn went home..so, get back, bathe. msn..haha..

afta dat called my akak, Atiqa..Confrence wit Yusof + my sweetie.

im sorry taw sweetie..i didnt meant to do that, please forgive me.. dont be mad at me kays? please? i noe its hard to forget, but please? for my sake?

and btw, my stomach is freaking in pain sia..im like wanna cry rite nw..haittoooooz!!!

so just put down da fone wit my sweetie,

coz i think she owready slept..nehmind, ltr can still call wadd..

and uhh, 21 december uhh im goink..im gon miss errone lahhs..okayy lahhs..

i gotta sleep ryte now..nagntok! ltr work at 9 sia..and my PAYDAY!! wooo!! okayy..gotta go.. bye! LOVE U ALL!!

PS: Sweetie, im really sorry, from the bottom of my heart, plz forgive me? i promise i wont do it again, i wont put u in any confrence no more..okayss? please? one last chance, i dont wanna have a quarelled..u dont believe dat i've changed? u dont noe, bt only i noe..

~Shaze~

with love..

Happiness On The Outside, Sadness On The Inside =(

my gallery

2006-12-03T05:45:00.000-08:00

well, i'm sometimes mad coz uhh, i gotta alot of probs..

sometimes, i just dont feel like da way we were b4,

i noe i've changed..

i regret breaking up wit u, on a very special day..

i looked at da mirror, talking to myself

"can i do this?", and asking myself "do u?"..

this makes myself mad abt da things i've done wrong to u..

feelin' like i've caught da worst flu..

no one understands me, n i said, no one..

only me, i am wad i am..

every single thang nw is like changing..

there's like a huge void in my life..

i've lost many people, i've lost my friends..

i almost lost everything in my whole entire life

even my undergarments.. no lahhs.. haha..

i gotta be honest to ya'll..

i cried inside my heart

its tearing me apart..

i cant forgive myself coz of da tragedy..

i thought it's alwaez perfect

bt uhh, i noe dat she's suffering..

i dont wanna see her suffer..

ill do anythang just to see her in happines..

haiyoo..suddenly, yesterday, i went emo??

damn, darn..haiyooz... hahaha..

i told my prnts dat we've broke up, dey was so angry abt me..

yeap..its all my fault.. im so freaking guilty.. i was abt to kill myself..

seriuzly..i'd almost..denn i thought of myself..

if im dead, wads da good thing? just try to go on wit life..

2 freaking bitches were waiting for me a long long time..

i reject em' coz, they're aint special like my angel nw.. BLUEKZ!

bt sometimes, i thought to myself..

"afta all i make her mad, does she still loves me??"

girl, i loved u from da start wen i gotta noe ya..

do u noe dat i swore myself dat i love u FOREVER?

this, i will never break it..

nw, we've patched backk..

i've changed alot.. seriuzly alot..

i told u everything, afta all this time, all da freaking lies i've made..

bt uhh..seriuzly..

if u think hys way better, leave me.

If u still love me, don't do this to me.. =)

im just gon let it all out..coz uhh..i dont want any keeping secrets to u..

if u dont wanna tell me urs, itz a nevermind, just for ur happiness..

and it dose'nt mean i dont care for u..

frm da bottom of my heart, i really really love u..

no otha women can replace u..

i aint kiddin..ryte now, im gon cherish every single time wit u..

haizz..i dont know why,

i fought my own "brother"..haizz..

hw can he lie to me? hw can he lie to u? hw can he lie to many people? why??

wen he lied to me, i was freaking overboard of myself..

haizz.. i know dat, im an idiot, im crazy, im a freako..

jyea..haizz..sometimes i wanna kill myself..

ok ok..itz done.. lets dont talk abt da past no more kayzz?? k goodz!

okayy..today, was having a cramah at Tampines CC..woke up at 7 sia..gotta check in work at 8..mampos..hahaha..

yo, ya know dat uhh, i fought wit eddy ryte? hahaha.. he lied to me many many times.. i was loike.. OHH FUCK DIZ GUY!! FUCK HIM RYTE NW!! haha..waited abt 4 yrs..haizz..denn coz people hatin me n eddy fight, i apologised, and shit, i was'nt da in da wrong..to make people happy, i have to.. HAPPY???

haizz..CIK RAZAK caught Karim smoked sia..kasihan2 my bestie..hahahx.. went to da doc and uhh, he said.. "Azuandy, ur lungs are half damaged bcoz of heavy smoking, ur throat has a lebam.." i was loike.. makkauu kepala pisang btol! hahaha.. im gon die if i dont stop..so im stopping..hahaha..

so uhh..anythang.. just text me up kays?? im kinda sick nowadaes..my body feelin weak..so uhh..goodbye..

~Shaze~

with love..

PS: thankz for all this time my friend.. =))

My angel

2006-11-30T02:57:00.000-08:00

heyys.. err.. i dont noe wad da heck is wrong wit me nowadaes. haizz..quarr wit my sweetie last 3 days.. eddy's in da hospital.. ytd, temanin' him 1 whole day..haizz..today went backk..at night goink to meet him..haizz.. addicted da song i wanna love u - Akon.. da chorus makes me sad sia..knn..hahaha.. Azuandy really2 misses his sweetie.. haiyoooz.. ya wanna noe lil lil sometin sometin? Do u really noe da real Azuandy? da real me is, selfish, hates people who are better den him.. wad da fuck is with AZUANDY? ya noe wad my name means?

A- Anxiety
Z- zero
U- un-social
A- Anotha Asshole
N- none wad u might think
D- Dealer & supplier of ciggs
Y - why? AZUANDY SUCKS!!

fuck? am i being myself? well, i aint.. i may be kind, friendly, loving, understanding, datz wad ya might think, bt uhh, have ya'll ever seen me struggle? in suffercating of surviving in this freaking fucking life? Aint no way people can change me, even my fam, even my girl, even my friends or anyone who dat is.. People will say dat I AM WAD I AM, yeah, fuck dat shit, wad am i? wad am i? saying dat shit every single night in my whole life.. Wad da heck? am i goin backk da way i were b4? da old AZUANDY? a playa, dont care abt people feelings? DAWG! i fucking care abt everyone's feelings, bt did dey ever think once abt me? ONCE?? im having a fucking trouble ryte now, bills, gotta pay many stupid shit.. FUCK LAHH SIALL!!!! eys, AZUANDY!! watch ur freaking mouth, ckp tk mau maki? WTF??? haizz.. sometimes i feel like dying..datz wadd many folks want me like dat.. SUFFER..
Faizal : Wan! kau gi mati pon gerek arh sial!!
Haikal: Wan, asl dgn kau? aku doa2 kau kene langgar kreter arh sial
Nazrul: Wan sialan becak bodoh, gi mampos arh, kau mati kter semuer happy..

so, is this wad dey want? One day guys, One day.. bt i dont wanna kill myself, coz i'm gon be sent to HELL.. yeap2.. and i dont wanna die like diz..i wanna die in peace.. i want people to smile wen i die, nt crying.. One little thingy datz never have been in my life is, DEATH... People dont wanna die huh? coz dey scared, aint ready.. me too.. Damn!! have u people ever think abt me? deep down? abt my feeling? all u ever want from me is, HAVE FUN.. peepz, i alwaez make ya'll laugh coz i ever wanted my fam, sweetie, friends to smile, never ever frown..okayy uhh..so my friends, if u really2 am my friend, u shld think abt it, stop every single thingy dat ur doin'.. All i noe is, NO ONE AND NEVER NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME.. haizz.. Its dhe end guys.. sorry i post abt diz.. i just cant keep it to myself.. sorry eks..

P.S : I LOVE EVERYONE WHO NOES ME, AND UHH, I LOVE MY SWEETIE DA MOST.. =))

peace

~Shaze~
with love..

For u..

2006-11-23T07:12:00.000-08:00

Nyce??

Heyy!! I'm backk!! sorry tk update psl tgh busy.. busy abt work, about my records, about friends, and busy busy busy wit my sweetie.. and wadever..i forgot wadd had happened diz dayz.. the only thang dat i remembered is, me n my syg had a quarelled, and nw itz over..wadever ek abt dat thingy..so move on..i ono lahhs.. arhh!! work!!! ahha..ya noe wad? im freaking dont noe wad to rite..haha..if i aint ritin, yall fans not goin to read my new posts ryte? yea i noe..haha..thankz my fans..hahaha.. so uhh..saw these pics? all are form da Feel Da Heat performance at da underground base.. neat uhh? aint it? wadevr..haha.. DAMN ARHH!!! I MISSED MY BEAUTIFUL WONDERFUL SWEETIE!! damn.. and to everyone, if u see me with otha girls, im nt in love wit dem..okayy? bt if only u saw me flirtin, datz timer..and I AM NOT!! datz true..absoutley true.. okay okay.. so wadever..met up wit wawa n lemon last 3 days i tink? haha..we had much fun..laughing all da way with my stupid jokez..kwa3.. denn next 2 days, met up wit wawa..we walked da walked..haha.. it was so fun sia..haha..okay2..denn went to work..blabla..next day..means today uhh, met up wit wawa, gave my form..denn asked her to gib mrs cheng to sign.. okay uhh..denn went to gib da flyers at gufran..denn went to tm wit Blaze~..jyea..have fun sia..temanin him to sell his LG n Motorola L6..kaya uhh Blaze..hahaha..okay okayy..denn went to TM, met up wit KakIzyan..haha..fun uhh..saw reen, raudah n some of their fwens..kewl!~hahha.. okay uhh.. haizz..tomorro, Sweetie's goin to Indon..gonna miz herr so so so so so so so much.. plz call da SOS for me, i need help!! haha.. okay uhh..im freaking tired sia afta working..And ABG K-MAL!! bler nk dpt kejer nihh? im 13 da dpt, ur 16? lomm dpt? aper kehek babe!! ahhaha.. okayy..i gotta end here kayz? tmorro work again..kiweekkkk gler..and da person who called me 5 timez abt telling u dat u are my gal's boy, well i tell ya wad, IM HER"S BOY! wanna fight? ill fight for herr, anythang ill sacrifice for herr.. Homboys, dont ever take her away frm me.. okayy?? she meant errthang to me.. aite.. holla!

~Shaze~

with love

No Goodbye!

2006-11-15T09:48:00.000-08:00

Heyy!! im bbbbaaacccckk!! haha.. i got something in my head ryte now, but no one knows.. ok ok, yesterday was fun!! work work work..haha..denn blablabla..i forgot uhh..n yesterday, my Sweetie talked wit me on da fone till 5 plus..thankz Sweetie! LOVE U MANY2!! XD.. and yesterday morning about 2 plus or 3? da old besties came unda my block! wooo!! Nadzhir's hair was green sia!! me n him had a prob yesterday night..so i didnt came down coz otf wit my Sweetie..but uhh, i called Kharil n da boys to finish em' up.. i dont dare to went down coz i dont wanna die, i wanna live long.. basket tolz!! Ace, Saif, Andelene was there too.. my ex-bitches was there too.. like : Andelene, Sofiah, Marsha, Juliannah, Lailya, Siti, Mirah && Farrillah.. walao!! those girls were wearing speghettie.. im like, "siak arh! dah hanyut perr?" haha.. u noe why Nadzhir wanna beat me up? because, last 4 month, wen i was with Andelene, i was like flirting to Marsha..denn Marsha's guy saw us..denn i got beaten up..datz was ok arh..im in da wrong..but now?? wtf?? i aint do any mistakes denn im going to be da one who get in trouble..like shitt sia!!

denn woke up around 10..went to work..ate my breakfast..denn do da works!! denn went to fetch my sis..went to work backk..denn went to junyuan to give out da flyers..denn went to lpak2..Abg Eddy's ex lpk2 wit me n Karim plus Eddy uhh..haha..we have fun..much laughter.. denn Marsha suddenly called me..siak tolz si Nadzhir.. Nadz flirt wit anotha bitch..infront of herr..diz is our conversation between me n Marsh..

Me: Heyloo?? saper nihh??

Marsha: Marsha lahh denggs!!

Me: yakk alah!! ingatkn saper..

Marsha: aik? member lamer nyer suara pon kau luper..

Me: maner aku tahu? da lamer perr.. apek kehek kau kol?

Marsha: Andelene slalu ckp psl kau taw..

Me: aper dyer ckp psl aku?

Marsha: dyer ckp, dyer nk mintak patch ngn kau bnyk2 kali denn kau tk accept, dyer bingit..

Me: kau tahu asl aku tk accept? aku da attached, kalau aku tk attached pon aku tk amek dyer alek, psl dyer skrg tgh stead.. dyer mmg Bastard..

Marsha: dyer pikir dyer maner nyeh lawar entarh..

Me: lawar? haha..kau tahu asl aku amek dyer? psl dulu, aku jatuh hati pader muker ngn badan..skrg aku tk pandang pon..

Marsha: bedek tk pandang, abehh smlm otf ngn aku ckp nmpk dyer..

Me: tuu terpandang..haha..

Marsha: so amaciam kau ngn mataer kau? setia tk nihh?

Me: aku? baek uhh..alhamdullilah..setia lah dolz!!

Marsha: jangan kau ikot kisah setan kau tawz..

Me: yerrlahh..denn amaciam kau ngn dyer?

Marsha: saper? Nadz?

Me: arh2 lahh..

Marsha: dyer flirt ngn pompan laen.. sedih aku..

Me: kau nmpk? kau buat aper?

Marsha: aku nmpk, tegor dyer uhh.. abehh aku tanyer saper pompan tuu..dyer ckp ngn aku, "mataer i baru, asl? u sibok2 sini asl?" aku punya geram ngn sedih, aku troz lepang, angkat diri, jalan..

Me: bastard nahh? abehh kau skrg ok tk? jgn nangis2 lahh..

Marsha: ok uhh..tpi aku confused..

Me: psl aper lakk?

Marsha: aku btol2 sygkn dyer, kiter dahh lagikk sikit atas katil, tpi aku tknk psl nk masehh virgin..

Me: kalau laki giler mcm gitu, kau lpaskn jerrlahh..

Marsha: kau senang jerr kau ckp, abehh yng dulu psl Yani aper hal?

Me: ek babe! tuu dulu taw! dulu!!

Marsha: kau tolong aku sikit arh..ckp ngn dyer, yng aku mintak break..

Me: tknk, tk mau..psl nnti dyer ingatkn aku nk stead ngn kau lakk..aku tk nk gitu..abehh aku kene rembat agikk..tk dapat arh..

Marhsa: ok uhh boy, aku tkyahh mintak kau tolong..tpi promise aku

Me: promise aper??

Marsha: yng kau akan sentiasa setia, jgn sakitkn hati mataer kau, aku tknk mataer kau jadi mcm aku.. kene bastard rabak2..

Me: arh2..aku tk setia? babe, tuu dulu tawz..nihh skrg, aku da find a perfect one, aku dahh setia maut nya, aku dahh tk campur ngn bdk2 coffebean lagikk..

Marsha: promise tawz! aku doa2 kn yng korang akan kekal sampai kahwin..

Me: kahwin jerr? means kau ckp, kahwin denn break arh, kekal SAMPAI kahwin?

Marsha: tklahh beyloh!! aku maksud, kau ngn dyer sampai akhir hayat..

Me: insya'allah..kalau ader jodoh..

Marsha: kau nihh skrg da berubah ek? dulu setan, skrg manusia..

Me: arh2 lahh..dahh tk lpk ngn korang lagikk troz aku baek..hahaha..

Marsha: means salah campur perr? buruk2 aku, aku tk minum, tk cukur, tk clubbing, tk rokok, tk jual..kau maserhh rokok?

Me: rokok?? tk uhh..aku nk stop for my own good n thankz kepada Sweetheart aku arh!! haha..

Marsha: menyampuik aku..ahha..ok arh..aku nk keluar jumper kwn aku..

Me: kwn atau laki baru? haha..break ngn Nadz kalau kau nk arh..psl aku mmg tk suker boy kau..haha..

Marhsa: tgk arh..ok lahhss..bye WanWan!!

Me: bye pendek!!

Marsha: ahaha..okok..take care..heck care arh!!

~TOOOOOOOOOOOOT~

datz our conversation.. to my Sweetie: syg, i dont love her tawz! i only love u..ur my one n only!!.. ok ok..afta da conversation, went to work..Sweetie called..denn we talked2..work2..went to mac..ate at rc..denn went home..bathe..reached home about 12..hahaa..now updating..nk gi 7 eleven!! byebye!!

PS: MARSHA GILERR!!! I LOVE MY SWEETIE!! MISSED HER SO MUCH!!

~Shaze~

with love..

Aint no way..

2006-11-13T12:20:00.000-08:00

Heyy!! ssup my lovely people?? ahaha..saw this pics? the 2 girls eating at KFC..i dont even noe hw i got da pic..itz a snapshot..and on ur left, there's diz girl, staring at me like she wants me..wadever.. bt to my Sweetie : Ain't no way im gon let u down..datz da word from my heart..ur my 1 and only..

and btw..yesterday, karim called me like out of da sudden..denn he n me now are alrite..we're backk..thankz bro..denn karim extra2..asked for da 10 bucks..haha..denn lpak wt him..denn my Bro came..denn i was like "waddhe hell?"..denn afta dat..we all 3 are backk as where we were b4..jyea.. i like it dat way..thankz bro n ayem..told my Sweetie dat we are backk bestie's again..alrite..

People!! check my soundclick! n vote it..im numba 4 in da charts rite now.. im like whoooo!! jyea..haha..im gon make anotha song..hope it cn be da numba 1..if its so, ill celebrate.. weehee!! KakAtiqa's boifey is abg Putra, Abg Putra is a rapper, he's in beats-society..im like waddhe hang?? haha..hope we cn collide one day..jyea..my life's gettin better sia..

ahaha..im missing my nenek..='(..ok..so today..met Drizze, sold my bandena fo 7 bucks..datz worth of 12 bucks ya noe! ahha..denn fetch my lovely sista..denn went home..ayem came to my house..karaoke..woo!! i can sing..jyea..i noe all da tricks now..hahah..i wanna be like chris brown or mayb usher or omarion or wadever..haha.. i wanna be my own.. denn went to cik ogy's house..iman!! really missed him..haizz..haha..at last saw him..went to Tampines Libarary, asked for da form for work..denn dont have..ayioo!! ahaha..denn went backk to cik ogy's house..

denn ate at KFC..denn those girls lahh..u noe..if forgot, read da top..haha.. dnn went home..no ones home!! haizz..bt sis was there..atLEAST! haha..waited for mum to bring some food to home..haha..now im updating about 4.24 in da morn..haha..i missed my Sweetie!! haha..seriuzly! i wanna meet herr..

denn about 2, went out..met kiki,ziezie n alep..lpak2, we overnight at da park..denn da berok(cops), were everywhere..haha..thiz is all bcoz of my mouth lahhs..sorry guys..bt i made those jokes..haha..WOKOK!! haha..kekek siot..haha..WO,WO,WOOOOKOOOOK!! haha..kiki was laughing all da way..sorry arh babe..aku tkleh stop jokings arh..ahha..aku nyer hobby..denn went to cc, berokz was there..nasib tk kene screen..i didnt smoked uhh!! seriuz!! itz about 2 weeks i stopped? yeahh..denn went to mac, bought sprite..kiki!! bayar aku nyer $4!! ahaha..denn went home..jyea..so saw Ace, Andelene, Saif, Ayid unda my block..waddhe hell are they doin? haha..Ace's my old bestie bastard me..Ace took away Andelene from me..bt now i dont give a shit..coz i have my Sayang..hope we can be forever..i hope so..my heart now is only u..ur my soul, my heart..if only u noe hw much u meant to me..now im at home..all BLACKS..haha..no lights only da comp arh...im freaking tired sia..ltr nk antar my lovely sis to school..im praying for herr to pass with flying colours..my sis is brilliant, she's only 8..n she noes how to cook maggie..hahaha.. okok..

i must stop now.. goodbye..

PS: I LOVE MY SWEETIE!! I MISSED HERR TOO MUCHH!!

~Shaze~

with love

Apology Speech..

2006-11-11T02:29:00.000-08:00

loose control, i ono wad to say..haizz..today was freaking mad..i ono..today was alrite till we fought..okok..datz it.. To My Ex-Bestfriend which i never thought i seen diz day, i juz wanna say that thankz for spending time with me wen im bored, played my xbox console, making jokes together, share our secrets, share about everything.. A million times sorry..bt if u dont wanna be back as we were b4, ill accept, bt i beg u dont do that..PLEASE..and everything that we've been through, thank u for da support, laughter, puji-pujian and anything.. I never will forget about da good times we shared together.. i noe ur mad, bt..never mind..i surrender i lost..if i told u all da good things i've done to u, im sure u never wanna talk to me again..again, im so so sorry.. To my "BRO", sorry for all da lies i've made, sorry dat i hated u, bt prove me wrong dat u've changed.. i've sacrifice everything for u, old timers, bought u boxes of ciggs, do stupid kind of stuffs, just step out of da house just to chill with u, is diz wad i get? yea..i noe, itz nort dhe end of the world, bt i gotta move on, and to PPIA, ustadz, if im in wrong sorry, Cik Ogy, sorry too, Tahirah && Zafirah, kalau abg ader buat salah kt korang, maaf yerr..i think im going to leave PPIA, n just be somewhere ya'll dont noe..i just wanna be DEAD, if im nt alive, everything will not ended up like diz..to da people who i made mistakes to, im also sorry, karim n eddy, i really hope ur reading this.. diz is wad i felt afta we fought, i noe dat fighting does have any good acheivements.. To my SAYANG, kalau i ader buat kesalahan yng u tk tahu, please forgive me.. itz like now im in da middle of the road, just waiting for something to hitt me..i might try that soon.. i just dont wanna leave anyone dat i love..im nt crying abt diz, im just so so sad abt diz..im so dissapointed of myself..oneday, u will accept me backk, bt now, ya'll cant forget abt diz so, we never be friends again.. u dont disturb my life, n i dont disturb yours..datz wad itz all about..sometimes everyone needs to move on, not staying and waiting fo something datz lost, so now im moving on to find new good friends that i can be with, hang around with..i've lost so many friends, im selfish! selfishness is in me.. i sometimes said to myself dat, "i hate convicts, i hate people who are poor n asking for money, i hate people who have things they have dat i liked" or wadever..i hope u understand all of diz.. anotha million times sorry.. i just thinking dat diz is a dream..now itz true, like wad Ace said, "your loved ones will leave u someday".. many people dont realise dat im a total JERK! a freaking boy who only cares for himself, not to others, only have feelings towards himself,alwaez put himself first denn others.. if i only had a chance to show u dat i've CHANGED, im gladly to say "UR A GOOD FRIEND"..

im like a convict now, waiting for a second chance..Convicts, im so damn sorry about i hated ya'll..now im nt..n diz day on, u will seldom see me in da hoods, streets,clubs,unda da block and at da spot..it breaks my heart to see dat everyone's leaving me..hope ur not leaving me..family's mad, friends out, my sweetie is dhe only one dat i can talk to..she's a bestfriend and my Sayang..thank u sweetie for all this days..Usah Lepaskan aku mcm gini..i used to think dat everyone dont wanna leave me, n now, everyone wanna leave me..hope my Sayang dont leave me..denn im all alone.. Karim,Eddy, PPIA, im so sorry..if my apology is not accepted, nevermind, bt i noe now, dat i've changed to a better one..realised dat no one is perfect.. i alwaez likes to be da top..sorry people if i saw u, i never talk much..coz i dont wanna open my big damn mouth..im now also scared of going out coz people might beat me up..haizz..only Allah noes wad im feeling..

i didnt cried, bt if its about my sayang, i cried..

peace..

read diz kays? thankiu..

~Shaze~

with much love n respect..

Usah Lepaskan..

2006-11-10T07:11:00.000-08:00

What is up? haha..sorry didnt update yesterday..yesterday went work..denn blablabla..i really forgotten abt yesterday sia..haiyoo..haha..btw, today..woke up about 11+..denn get dressed for work..denn went out..thought of meetin my Sweetie today bt uhh, she didnt answer my calls or msges i tink..so datz aite..afta work, went to TM to eat LJS..haha..bought da food..and eat..woo..

denn out we go to meet KakAtiqa..lpak2 at rc wit her n her "admire?" abt 4 plus, went to my crib..lpk2..denn went to Cik Ogy's house..played with Iman..haha..Karim was funny lahhs..i love him as my bestiee..or wadever..afta tat, went home..bathed..called my Sayang..denn talked2.. I LOVE HERR SO MUCH LAHH!! Tomorro goin to Airport to send my cuzzie's back to Scotland..im nt going to Scotland..mayb next 9 yrs? haha..alrite..tomorro hope all my cuzzies are there, yng kenal ataopon tk knl..ahha..i want testi lahh!! ABG KAMAL!! TESTI!!

NABILAH!! TESTI!!

or anyone lahh..tomorro gon work sia!! mlas maut gler sewel toyol badigol..who da fuck is eliana_sachek@hotmail.com?

To diz mothafucka : saper sakk kau aleh2 add aku abeh nk maki? aku nyer psl arh aku nk kutuk diorang kerr..aper kau kesah? aku mmg ader hal ngn diorang..aper kau kesah siak? abehh mauu peng diri 18..padahal baru p6..peng namer fadly, pada hal namer kau pompan..kau minah perr? abehh nk peng kau bdk alep? bdk alep design perr? aku ader kwn bdk alep yng dyer knl arh sia.. kalau kau dah raserr malu mmg bagus..kalau kau nk panggil abg2 ataupon kakak2 kau, go ahead lahh eh..aku tkda kesahh..da umur pendek buat hal umur pendek lahh sia..sachek konon..aku sachok..palapuki lahh sia..aku tkda takot ngn saper2 lahh..Allah sajer yng aku takot..asl mauu extra siak? add aku abehh mauu carikk hal..abg kau ader msk campur perr? nihh hal kau perr sia? aku fed up sia ngn bdk puki nihh..sah kau jadi pontianak sundal mati..kalau btol2 tk puas hati..tron tempat aku.. Avenue 8 lah sia..

freaking hate diz type of people..dammit..sorry abt da vulgar languages.. i just cant control abt diz..AKAK!! jgn ajak andelene bler nk lpak lahhs..adq tk suker dyer lagikk!! AYID!! 20 ketol aku bler mauu bayar.. PUNKZ!! FUCK YA"LL!! MAT REPS!! FUCK YALL!! everyone who hates me..two words..FUCK OFF!! sometimes i feel jealous about something dat no one noes..

okok..ill end diz here..one more thingy..

I MISS MY SWEETIE!! I LOVE HERR SOOOO MUCCCCCHHH!!!!!

holla at me,

~Shaze~

with love..

SLEEP LAHH DEHH!!

2006-11-08T08:47:00.000-08:00

Heyy!! didnt sleep for few days..haizz..okok..today slept for 2 hrs only.. woked up and 23 missed calls, all private numbers plus 17 messages..all da numbers i aint no bt some only lahhs..hahahaha..mlz nk reply sakkz.. so so.. gi mandi, get dressed and went for work..met ayem..denn went for work..haiyoo..tutup leyy.. i was otf wt my Sayang..Thankz for dhe accompany ek sweetie..ok ok..so..went to KFC.. bought Zinger Burger Meal..woohooo!! Sedap nyer enak lehh dolZ!! hahaha..denn went backk to my work place..haha..denn went to err fetch my lil sis, went home..lpk2 at my house..denn abg adee was there, ayem kekek!! haha.. Eddy came ltr.. denn Fidiyanah called, asked if im at home..told herr dat im going backk..haha..nk jalan raya kerr Mary? weak arh luu!! bler aku nk kejer baru mauu datang..haiyoo..denn went to work..take da books and then went to Bedok to meet Nurul coz got a lil something to tell about da Family..i mean us, da family..ya know wad im sayin? haha..waited fo herr abt few hours sia!! denn saw Fatin..haha..she aint growing no more taller..hahaha..denn went to her house..haha..drink dat 7 up..haha..Sedap! denn Fatin gave me $2 for hari raya..hahaha..kekek arhh!! haha.. went backk to work..denn went to Kampong Melayu at GEYLANG..haha..Eddy didnt followed us coz his Uncle passed away..Innalillah waa inaraa'jiuun..amin..so sold those books..sold about 9 books..and gave all da flyers..haha..denn went to eat at KEDAI WAN..my name horr..WANN!! hahaha..denn afta eating..lpakz!! denn went home..denn someone msg me.. a girl? so i didnt reply.. gave dat hp numba to my syg to ask her to stop diz shit coz im gettin irritaited..ya know something? when im nt attached, no girls..when im attached, damn, countless wanna get to noe me..But baby, im alwaez setia..now dat i got a perfect one..fo shizzle..denn just now, called my Sayang..talk about err..somethings lahhs..u dont need to noe..hahah..funny lehh..I love herr so much lahhs!! WEE~~denn met Jab n Eddy just now at da spot, dey went smoking, i did'nt..i stopped okay!!need to refresh my lungs.. denn went to 7 11..bought some keropokz..eat..haha..me n jab took a video of Eddy sleeping..he snores like a BERUK!! my abg jugak lahs..hahahaha..kekek dokk!! u shld see da video sia!! hahahaha.. i think im going to Batam about 3 days 2 nights..haizz..i dont wanna go uhh coz im gon miz my Sweetie/Sayang..haiyooo..tgk dulu arh..hahaha..btw, im backk to hip-hop, goin to do my records..photoshoot's done..now itz gon be seriuz buissness..ahhaha..to da bitches/minahs in SG, ya'll dont deserve a life coz ya'll been doin shitz, alot of yall are like fucking pelacurs..im typing diz straight forward.. so sorry if i hurt yall feelings..ok? to da matz? hahaha..stop lahh sia..if ya dont like me or wanna hit me, just search me at tamp, avenue 8.. oppsiee..itz about 5.24 in da morning..havent sleep sia..sleeping charming..haha..i like it U!! ahaha..SOFIAH!! WHERE'S DA HECK IS MY BREAKFAST, LUNCH N DINNER? 50 DOLLARS EACH TAWZZ!!!! haha..i love sofiah lahh as my bestiee..

BUT I LOVE MY SAYANG MORE LAHH DEHH!

okok..

outta go to da bed..

~Shaze~

with love..

I love her more than anyone..

2006-11-07T08:40:00.000-08:00

Heyy..hw ya'll been doin? hope cha' fine..today was fun bt something went wrong at night, ltr tell ya..

so went to Blaze's house abt 1++ morning..

denn went to meet jab around 2+ in da morning too..

denn about 4+ in da morning went home..

denn about 7 went to sleep..

15 messages and 25 missed calls..

everyone said..

"OI! bangun lahhs!! Gi kejer!!"

"Az! Bangun!!"

haiyooz..denn about 11.50, i woked up..

msg demm dat sorry lahhs and blablabla..

went to meet karim..denn went for work..

afta that.. went to meet Jab..

went for photoshoot for dhe album..

denn went to fetch lil sis..

afta datt, went to work backk..

denn went home..

went to workk..

denn lpak2..

afta work, saw MY ABG!

Eddy!

he was riding his bike..

denn i tegor him..

he stare at me like wanna eat me..

denn jeling..

ABG!! wad has happened to u?

did i hurt ya?

WTF??

ok ok..saw Karim's cuzzies wit some boys..

one of da boys brought a scissors..

deyy ran afta me..

so i ran arh..

went to golden pine..

Ali kene rembat..walao..

i was on da fone with my syg seyy

denn deyy interuptt..

shit sia..

so i put down da fone..SORRY SAYANG!

my stamoch was bleeding afta da shit they pulled..

so called my Darl backk..

she msg dat MOTHAFUCKA!, i forget wad she reply..

haizz..

denn she was loike crying?

baby, im sorry to make u cry.. im sorry if i made u mad.. im sorry if i hurt ur feelings..hope our relationship stays da same and i hope it last forever..

ur my one and only.. a million times SORRY to u..i feel bad about myself.. i hate to put my love ones in tears..now i am also.. ='((

syg, i hope u will forgive me, and plz dont cry and also, forget da past remember it after death..

went home, wipe off da bloods..and denn called herr to see if she's okay..

denn suddenly, her phone was disconnected..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i miz herr!! missing her now! every single second..

listenin to Usah Lepaskan - Taufik Batisah..

dat song makes me sad..so sad..im in my tears..

SHAYANA, if only u knew hw much u ment for me..

i love u more than i love my soul..

anything for u, i'll sacrifice..

now im all alone, in diz dark living room..

and plus, my mouth's bleeding!

im just looking at my phone, waiting for her phone call..

haizz..

i think i better stp now b4 i start all da bad things abt myself..

so peace outssa..

love ya'll..

PS: I LOVE U AND I CAN NEVER EVER STOP LOVING U..

HOPE U FEEL THE SAME WAY AS ME..

~Shaze~

with love..

Do ur chains low..

2006-11-06T03:52:00.000-08:00

Babi sia!! kene duduk uma seyy..nyer lahh boring.. btw, just now morning abt 3++, went skimming..Rai didnt went sia..so take da cab alone..went to West Coast..da guys smoked2..i didnt smoked..haha..KNN tolz..luckily didnt get screened sia..walao..haha..ok..yesterday went to Sofiah's house!! woohoo!! Idris was so so cute!! still 1 yrs old..hahax..

okok..backk from skimmin ard 7++..denn went to bed for awhile.. dad woke me up..denn dad asked me to vacuum da whole house..denn malas sakk..so he get mad..ahha..who gve a fuck sia?? so juzz get inside my room..haha..afta abt 12++, went outside, chatin2..haha..denn get an mail..dammit..$424.48 sia!! walao..bt nehmind..dad's gon pay..XD..

sleept at 2.17..denn woke up abt 5.06..thankz to my SYG, she woked me up.. I got something to tell herr : im nt in love with other girls wen im wit u, only my bestfriends and friends.. da only girl dat im in love with is only u, ONLY tawz!!

ok ok..denn sembahyang magrib, jema'ah..haha..gerekz!! so so da funny..tomorro goin to lpk with Naz! Wirda? i don't know lehh..didnt contact abt some few days sia..haiyooo..XD.. ok ok..i wanna end it here..

PS: I love darling Shayana MORE than she loves me..haha.. =D

~Shaze~

with much love..

Do ur chains low..

2006-11-05T08:26:00.000-08:00

Ishh nuu alaah my warrios, diz is ur warcheif Shaze in da booth..im here to tell ya'll wad happened today..hahaha..ok ok.. Did'nt went to bed coz waitin fo msg from my syg..haha..bt nehmind..wanted take a few mins of rest bt dad woke me up..DANGG!! Sholat Subur..denn went off to da Zoo abt 8.30..Took da passes and tickets and a girl came up to me n asked for my numba..haiyoo!! i told herr im attached wit a beautiful and loving girl.. so i did'bt gave n just walked away..haha..Mad Women.. took breakfast with pancakes n tea..ok ok..get backstage, read all my lyrics first, denn get on stage..haha..walao..so many kids sia..haha..i make some jokez..sang twinkle2 little star with dem, sung "I Dream" and rap Sunshine..haha..it was alot of fun even though im speechless at sometimes..da audience were spectacular!! cheering for me! wooohooo!! denn abt 1 p.m, went off to Tok Hamzah's house, denn met Kak Heidi!! gaga..she look nyce on da chiong-sam..nyce lehh..denn da camera man came..denn da reporter..asked some few questions..i sat beside da reporter..seeing every word she wrote..bt denn.. i dont understand..she didnt wrote, bt she scribbled..haha..denn da camera man took pics..i was there..hopefully, im gon be in dat pic! ahaha..buy the strait times aite!! denn cik basri and fam came!! woohoo!! denn abg adee!! woohoo!! denn i forgot bt woohoo!! haha.. called up my princess darl, denn father called asked to get in coz alot of taking pics..so get in lahhs.. sorry got to put down da fone =(..denn afta all dat eatin, talking, laughing, we went to Tok Haji Mahmoaed's House..haha..Haziqah's grown uhh..dahh nk naek sec 3 next yr..wow..haha..i think we're da same height..haha..as i can say, im a tall, white handsome looking charming prince =X..haha..girls, dont kejar me coz im not AVAILABLE!! denn went home..Cik Bas gave me da $20..went home..denn went down..5 girls asked for my numba again! haiyoo!! didnt gave..said wad i've said to dat girl dis morn..haha..im so popular..haha..used to be a playa, bt now im SETIA..haha..love my syg lahh..so so very very very much!!denn Cik Samsi came! his daughter was so cute..small seyy..nursery..forget to take pics!! haiyahh!! denn went off to momma's best friend's house..ate some foods..denn went off to Sofiah's house..hahax..ate pizza's n chicken chop..woohoo!! talked alot seyy..denn i didnt layan herr till i wanted to go home..haha..i only said "Goodbye bestie!"..datz all.. denn now im at home..blogging..and eatin..and smsin my syg..love u lahh!!

i love my kakak also very much! bt my syg d most lahh!

I MISS MY DEAR SHAYANA VERY MUCH LAHHS! =D

Im in love again!!

2006-11-04T07:12:00.000-08:00

When I think of you

I think of how my dearest dream came true You mean the world to me

How much I love you too

You'll always be my one true love

Forever in my heart

The feelings that I feel for you

I can't begin to even start

My love for you is so strong

My love for you is real

My love for you is something I never thought I'd feel

I think of you when we're together Even when apart

No matter where you are You're always in my heart

I want to make you happy I just want you to see

I hope that we're together forever

You and me

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I’m in love

What can I say?

I guess it just happened

And it grew more each day

Love was the last thing on my mind

And then I met you After some time,

I decided right then That no one else would do People come around me

Some move away

Some glance our way

and whisper

But I could care less what they say

I love you for you

You love me for me

Our love is perfect Why can’t other people see?

I never planned to fall in love so soon

But then you came my way I realized how much you really loved me

And I started to feel the same

You are my sexy love

I hope you’ll ever last

Together we will make it through somehow

Through it all,

we’ll have a blast

Whenever you hold me

I feel like I’m floating up above

You’re all I could ever ask for I know that I’m in love

Sometimes I may shy away Sometimes I may run

But I love you now and always will

You will always be the one I don’t want to take it slow Nor do I want to rush

There’s no need to worry

There’s no reason for any fuss

Sometimes the words don’t come easy to me

But the feelings always do

From now until the end of time I will always be in love with you

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You're my life, you're my love,

You're my shining star, you're my beautiful dove,

I love you so much, you don't even know,

When I think about you my face starts to glow,

I'm so blessed to know you, J

ust talking to you makes me feel less blue,

I've always wanted somebody like you in my life,

Someone who's kind, adorable, and usually very nice,

But I never stop to think,

That what God's given me could be gone in a wink,

It's never really occurred to me, That God could easily take you away from me,

So while we're here, let's make it great,

And whatever happens, is up to fate,

Because if there's one thing in this life I know is true,

It's the simple fact, that I LOVE YOU..

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harlooo!! nyce poems is'nt it? haha..all dedicated to my syg..

ok ok.. today ws awesome..bt my syg went to JB..i missed herr!! bt Diyanah Missed me more.. bluekz..datz wad she said..ok ok..woke up at 12.. she woked me up by few fone calls n an sms..ahaha..so sweeeeettt!! i just missed herrr lahh..hahaha..

ok..get bathe and called dad..dad asked me to be dressed abt 3.45..denn went to PPIA..Ustadz didnt caught me smoking anymore coz ive stopped..denn eddy was tere..soo bought Cik Ogy some foods..denn went home..get full dressed, went to fetch mommy!! denn went to Cik Basri's house..woohoo!! abt 5.17, Diyanah smsed me!! yeayy! she's back in SG..missed her so much uhh!! denn we smsed, talked on da phne..denn maghrib, we sembahyang jemaah..da imam was so sengau!!haha..so we took pics..i took pics wit abg kamal n adq fatin..yeayy!!

and now!! my life is more bterr!

from friends to adq angkatz n kakak angkatz!

Dillah's my adq angkat!! Izyan's my kakak angkat!!

i love them so muchh!! much!!

bt i love diyanah more than them!!

jkjkjkjkjkjk..

now i gotto use da toilet lahhs!! nk antar taik kt ATM..

GUYS!! sorry for not goink to skim, for not helping to kick some ass..

i had a "family problem"...

hahahha..mcm paham..i only trynna avoid diz shits for awhile..

ok ok..i gotta bounce lahh..

PS: I LOVE MY ADQ N KAKAK ANGKAT!!

BT I LOVE DEE MOST!

~Shaze~

with love..

Shortie Like Mine..

2006-11-01T10:05:00.000-08:00

Woitz!! sorry coz i didnt update..ahaha..kinda busy wit raya..ok ok.. yesterday..b4 jalan raya, i went to meet Is'sha..haha..fun sia!! get to show off my new handphone to herr..she was freaking jealous..haha..last stick? babe! aku da stop isap uhh!! =))..denn went to fetch lil sis..denn went backk..off to interchange small mac to meet Naz, Rila, Wirda, Safiah, Affandi & Gadafi..haha..wen men naz,rila,affans n gada were waiting for Wirda and Safiah, we went to buy da old chang kee..haha..denn lpk2 wo abt 20 mins? think so..hahaha..ok ok..denn went backk to da inter..denn there they come..and we join forcers wit Elsa and da rest..first house we went to is i dont know uhh..forgot..haha..denn i know we went to affandis house, denn naz, denn rila..RILA IS SCARED OF LIPAS!! hahahah..denn i went off early coz i need to go to work..jyea..afta work, met Rai Kechik..lpakz..I DIDNT SMOKE!! okok ..so went backk to ma crib..used da comp till abt 4 or 5..smsed MY SYG!! i love Shayana!! im going to herr house tomorro..woo!! eddy's goin go too..jyeahh..ok ok..called up diz Mr T guy to ask some help coz of my thingy..ahaha..thankz ehk bro.. jyea jyea jyea..today's open house was a blast..Naz,atika,affandi,Izyan, fuz..many ppl came to my house..jyea..bt my guest-of-honour didnt come =(..she has to follow her mum to go to her cuzzie's house..bt nehmind..hahaha..ok ok..denn went lpk juz now wit eddy,zul, shazirin..gerekz..went to Drizze's crib..he's a mama's boy..haha..ok ok..den went home..today no skimming..jyea..haha..tired sia..ok ok..byebye..

AND MY DATE ABT MY OPEN HOUSE IS 2nd November PLUS I HAVE A WONDERFUL SYG ON 2nd November..

I LOVE HERR SO SO MUCHHIES!! =))

~Shaze~

with love..

I jus love it..

2006-10-31T08:27:00.000-08:00

harloook!! Azuandy's backk..hahahaha..yesterday i didn't update ryte? i was kinda busy, i went skimmin again at east coast..haha..Adiq's surfboard was so slippery dat Adiq fell and his hand was cramed..hahaha..kekek siakk..wan was siow sia..saw diz bangla denn imitate every single thing dat da bangla did..hahaha..funny klakar mauta..haha..now i've changed my handphone, i've changed my number and! no more of that bitch calling me or wad so ever..jyea!! haha..now im free..ok ok..today was ok..ahah..woke up and no one at home..so ustadz told me that i gotta work today at 11..so..ok..eddy came to my house..denn i bathe..dad came home..blablabla..denn went to da barber shop for eddy's haircut..

haha..denn ayem went to da Barber shop..denn afta dat..wen work..many things to do..denn abt 12.50, i fuck da hell off from there..wen to fetch sis..denn went out Jalan Raya wit, Johan,Syaiful,Haziqah n Wirda..went to meet em at starbucks by cab..ahaha..denn ferst house we went was Izyan..haha..her mum's mee goreng was impacted awesome! haha..eat two rounds sia plus da drink anotha 2 rounds..hahaha..ok ok..denn went to Miss i dont know wad house..denn dont have.. so went to johan's house..denn went to Miss Hashimah..bt she wasnt in..so i went backk home..get dressed denn went jalan raya..to Cik Jaynab house, denn Cik salleh..denn cik Norsiah..woo..total dis 3 house was abt 30 bucks..haha..denn went home..got few missed calls at home..most of them are private..so wen unda my block..juz to release out my stress..lookin at diz Viceroy Super Menthol Light Box..whether to smoke or not..bt with da help from Diyanah, i stop smoking..dat was da last stick i smoked.. 31st October 2006..thankz to herr..haha..ate some few mucchies..tomorro goink out wit naz,wirda n gada..take neoprints..errr..ewww? nt my taste for neoprints? hahaha.. im tryin my best to stop smoking..

ok ok..gotta bounce..

holla!..

~Shaze~

with love..

Bored, Bored, Bored

2006-10-29T08:16:00.000-08:00

Ay yo!! waddup?? haha..today was sial! gotta wake up about 5 bt i didnt sleep..damn damn damn..woke up everyone, denn i bathe, denn get dressed on my baju kurung n kain samping..damn sia..i missed Singapore..even though itz only 8 hours..haizz..haha..went to eat at JB..wahhpiang! da prata's dalchar was fucking not tasty..bt if put sambal, walao, FAVOURITE sia..haha..yesterday bought a new watch..cost me about $50? ok arh..haha..afta eatin, went to Makro..at last sia! got to smoke..jyea! haha.. went to da toilet n SHIT..walao, 5 submarine floatin..haha..denn afta dat..we went off to CIk Kamal's house..woo! in da car, i was da first boy whoz sleepin..snoring..walao weyy..thank god my saliva didnt went out..ahaha..at that time, i received a message from my EX..haizz..she wants me backk..nt Andelene..anotha biatch..ahaha..denn afta Zohor, went off to Extra..abg kamal n sibilings plus abg fai, bought games..haha..denn otw to Singapore, i sleep again..many times sia..so penat lahhs..haha..da chewing gums dat i bought, i put it inside da tissue box..stupid police, dont know where to check..haha..denn went to Singapore, i was so so happy..haha..went home..bathe..denn heard kak shika on da radio from perth..woo!! me, lil sis n kak nana was crazy shouting..haha..fun sia..denn Pak Long came to my house..Haikal n one more i forgot were so cute..especially Haikal..haha...small little cute boy..haha..denn went off afta maghrib to Ustadz house..woo! ader pompan jambu babe..Bt nahh..i went there jus to see my cute ADIK!! IMAN!! haha..love him so much lahhs!! haha..Ustadz n my dad had a long conversation abt remaja, n i was into it..haha..dad told ustadz to take care of me..i tindik lahhs, minum lahhs, isap rokok lahhs..haha..bt dad loves me, datz wad i noe, n i love my dad..jyea..without him, i never gon be able to be born..luckily i was his sperm..amin..hahaha..later goin down to play takraw..ltr dat aunty muz be there again..now going to disturb her by her pants.."Aunty! wearing pants until ur breast? da tissue breast arh? walaoweyy.." haha..dat aunty funny sia..ltr scratch her bald head..i called her "Aunty Chicken.." her hair at da center is bald, denn theres there stocks of hair at da back, left n right..haha..like a chicken..kwa3..tomorro goin to meet Diyanah..at last get to meet herr in person..wooohooo!! cant wait..haha..im on da house for lunch..anyone? wensday! da peepz gon be goin to my house...jyea! cant wait..woo!! raya raya raya..thursday goin to Atira's open house..jyea!! today going to change my hp..woo!! happy sia..diz was afta i been qualified to N/A..dad gave me freedom..smoking oready yellow light, taunt is green light..woohoo!! jyea jyea jeya!! 29 oct was abg hassan's birthday!! happy birthday babe!! dahh 18! lehh go clubbing..haha.. ok ok.. im done of updating diz shit..one more thing..

If I wrote you a symphony,Just to say how much you mean to me (what would you do?)If I told you you were beautifulWould you date me on the regular (tell me, would you?)Well, baby I've been around the worldBut I ain't seen myself another girl (like you)This ring here represents my heartBut there's just one thing I need from you (say "I do")

Yeah, becauseI can see us holding handsWalking on the beach, our toes in the sandI can see us on the countrysideSitting on the grass, laying side by sideYou could be my baby, let me make you my ladyGirl, you amaze meAin't gotta do nothing crazySee, all I want you to do is be my love(So don't give away) My love(So don't give away) My love(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love(So don't give away) My love(So don't give away) My love(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my loveOoooh, girlMy loveMy loveNow, if I wrote you a love noteAnd made you smile with every word I wrote (what would you do?)Would that make you want to change your sceneAnd wanna be the one on my team (tell me, would you?)See, what's the point of waiting anymore?Cause girl I've never been more sure (that baby, it's you)This ring here represents my heartAnd everything that you've been waiting for (just say "I do")

if u know who u are girl..juz holla ma digitz baby..i juz want u to take my love..ceyy..jiwang lakk aku..haha..gotta bounce..holla!

~Shaze~

with love..

Rage & Love

2006-10-28T14:14:00.000-07:00

Heyy..im backk..posting ma block in da mornin..haizz..later goin to JB..gotta meet Cik Kamal n family..i know itz only a few hours but, i miz ya'll like few weeks..ahaha..yesterday, around 12, she came wit da boyz..dey gave me a sweet talk..haha..wadever lahh sia..i aint scared..ya know why i run from ya'll? i made people who loves me cry..datz why..damn damn damn..ok ok..And plus, andelene, u shld juz fuck off, dont even botha of havin me backk, coz i aint gon be backk wit ya, never will, datz my decision, whether u like it or not..i dont give a shit..i shld have known about that shit u pulled, damn..wad can i say? Love Is Blind..ok..afta dat shit, i went to bed, denn woke up..Ayem called n he came to ma crib..denn about 1.30 we went off..Cik Ogy called me fo help at my Ustadz house..ok ok..went there..help..denn went off to ma home..Mom n Dad were fighting..haizz..denn tk dpt jalan raya for awhile..denn..Dad was so romantic..haha..love em' parents..Dad gurau2 wit Mom..denn Mom was loike merajuk, denn Dad gave Mom a kiss..damn..loving seyy..tuu lahh makbapak aku..haha..Wensday!! there's many peepz comin! wooohooo!! haha..i dont loike going to JB lahhz! kotor..taik! I'm gon miz ya'll sia!! Especially da people who are more close to me.. =(..ok ok..denn about 8.30 we bounce to jalan raya! 1 house only sia!! Kaninek..haizz..i got one secret..and i would NOT like to share to ya'll..haha..wad does women from a guy? datz wad im askin maself wen im in love wit someone..haizz..afta jalan raya, we went to rumah cik fauzan, haha..sempat uhh..He's baby boy were asleep, i love dat baby boy!! cuite skali!! bt cannot bear IMAN!! hahaha..bt cannot beat AZUANDY!! da charming baby..kwa3..shiok sendiri sakkz..there was once, i was chillin wit ma peepz unda da block..diz aunty was loike siow one lahhz..denn i asked herr, "aunty, ur breast real or fake? looks like ur puttin tissues in it.." hahaha..cannot tahan sia..ketawer rabak2..rite now, i can trust anyone, except da people i close to..haizz..ltr they betray me, denn tell wierd stuffs about me..haizz..like diz BITCH, who PLAYED me, NOT andelene, ANOTHA GIRL, u should know who u are BITCH! Ay yo fuckin PUNKS! me n ma boy, got ourself a dissin track fo u! ahaha..itz aite..bt who give a shit? hahaha..i love to say this when im in love, syg syg syg kt syg ke tk syg? style ah..haha..im a big fan of Justin Timberlake, Usher, Chris Brown, Ray J, Micheal Buble, Bobby Valentino and all otha R&B artist..From Punk to Jazz to Mat Rep to Techno to Hip-Hop..and now R&B..haha..style..next time, MAT RELAK..kwa3..mepekz lahhz..i love u baby..im crazy..ok arh..dad asked me to bathe..so gotta bounce.. peace..Love ya'll..ol' of ya'll..

~Shaze~

with love..

Ain't Gon Let her go..

2006-10-27T08:16:00.000-07:00

heyy..hw ya'll doin? today woke up wit a phone call..Ayem called me..asked if today wanna go "jalan raya"..afta dat, bathe, b4 bathing, went to smoke some ciggs..denn Ayem came to ma crib..we smoked..blablabla..denn Eddy came..he played my fuckin Xbox without my fucking permission..who da fuck do he think he is? ayte wadever sia..dont give a fuck abt it..ok ok..so played da comp with em' in ma house till 2..i was like angry wit Eddy..fuck sia..kacau jekk wen i was chattin wit my ex..haizz..im trynna explain why i wanna go, denn he maen sardine n sign out..chibai sia! kanitoot! denn out to ma crib..went to Cik Hanifa's house..haha..itz fun..denn went to KFC n eat..denn Isyam's House, denn went to Wan Karat..denn jln2 dont know where..wit kamarul..denn i decided to head home coz Dad wanted to change my hp coz i was qualified to N/A..blabla..went to Bedok bt cnnt sia..i didnt bring my ezlink..denn wen eatin at da restaurant, i had a mysterious phone call..it was her callin me..damn..she asked wad happened to us..diz is our conversation..

Her: Baby, cn u just tell me da thruth?

Me: Itz nt u, itz me, i need to find something better..

Her: Why? im nt that good?

Me: i didnt said that, bt it is..

Her: Sorry baby, no matter what, ur still in my heart

Me: sorry, don't call me ur boy nomore, ur still a friend..only..

Her: cn we be more than friends next time?

Me: U just hope for the future kayz?

Her: im crying..

Me: pull yoself together..

Her: ok azuandy, now i understand wad really happened..

it was me ryte?

Me: ryte..

Her: Ace was wit me behind ur back ryte?

Me: kinda..

Her: bt i wanted to bastard him..

Me: but wad happened now? ur still with him, n wen i saw both of u im juz..

Her: juz wad?

Me: juz feeling jealous, datz why i need to go, trynna avoidin u..

Her: avoid me? why? sorry..im so so sorry..

Me: sorry? fo sho?

Her: yes..i still love u, n i dont want to leave u..

Me: i dont wanna leave u too, bt, itz time..

Her: syg, im otf wit diz bastard larhh (nt talking to me, talkin to Ace)

Me: wad? u called me bastard? who's da one bastard?

Her: sorry baby..i didnt meant to say that..

Me: enough of ur bullshit, go fuck ur own shit

Her: chill plz..i juz need to ask you something..

This is da part we start da fight..

N i let all out.. damn.. =((

Me: fuck u! wad da fuck are u saying to me abt those bullshit? about u loved me, about u wanted me backk, about every single fuckin love shit..wad da hell was all that about? are yo out of ur mind? cn u juz tell me da thruth? huh? wad dhe fuck is diz? fuck u bitch!

Her: wad da heck? u saying dat to me? ur da one who lost -----------------..and u want to say all that to me? what happened if da whole world know abt dat? ur gon feel embarrased..stupidity..datz why ur in tech..

Me: shut da hell up, it dosent mean im stupid bitch, next yr im in acad so fuck it..

Her: tonight, 12, Ace gon be down, juz wait n see..

Me: i dont give a fuck, im goin down to kick some ass bitch..holla!

ok ok, everytime in da late comin, i was wit ma ex girlfried, everytime u called me i was workin, bt now, we've changed to gettin hurt n i, aint a good man i juz, deal wit things dat ive done wrong, now lets do da thong song..hahahha..

fuck dat bitch.. im findin a ryte one..plz find me one! i need a girl, to ride ma lyfe..

ppl..so long..itz runnin late..gotta get down to whip some ass..holla!!

~Shaze~

with love..

He's Backk!!

2006-10-26T07:17:00.000-07:00

Yo!! ya know whoz backk? itz yo mayn shaze!! itz been about 3 months dat i didnt online on msn or wadever? sorry..kinda busy wit work..yo..itz hari raya!! Selamat Hari Raya to all my fellow muslims..saper tk puasa bayar balekk tawz..haha..ok ok..nyce pic?? haha..diz pic was da pic i took wen going to hari raya prayer..nyce baju kurung..haha..ok ok..today was da best da of my life..haha..kinda...at assembly gotta be on stage..damn..embarrsing moment..gotta dance..haha..itz fun..da host Lina was hot..haha..ok ok..afta dat got my results..next year gon go N/A..woo!! so happy..now thankz to Izyan =)), i got a blog again!! woo!!.. haha..itz been about two months im seperated from herr..damn hard to forget herr..trynna find anotha one who can make me forget herr..aww..=(..haha..on 26 Oct, went backk to ma crib, got a new cup which abg amir gave me for my birthday!! woo!! nyce sia!! kiwekk tolz..everyone i need to ask ya for forgiveness..Sorry Lorry Strawberry lorhh..haha..i can't forget diz girl sia!! haizz..okok..tomorro i tell diz shit again k?? nk jln raya..byebye..

~Shaze~

with love..